Wednesday, August 10, 2011

verse to reflect on...

do to others what you would have them do to you, in everything.
    - Matthew 7:12

Poem

God understands your sorrow, 
He sees the falling tear,
and whispers, "I am with thee", 
then falter not, nor fear.


God understands your heartache,
He knows the bitter pain;
O, trust Him in the darkness,
you cannot trust in vain.


God understands your weekness,
He knows the tempter's pow'r;
and He will walk beside you

however dark the hour.


He understands your longing,
your deepest grief He shares;
then let Him bear your burden,
He understands and cares.
- Oswald Smith

verse to reflect on...

When I said "my feet are slipping", your mercy, oh Lord continued to hold me up. When I worried about many things your assuring words soothed my soul. 
~ Psalm 94:18,19 Gods Word Translation

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

If you realized how powerful your thoughts are, you would never think a negative thought.  - Peace Pilgrim

Monday, August 8, 2011

Quotes

God may not speak when we want him to, but he is working, behind the scenes, bringing the best possible solution. -Max Lucado

Sunday, August 7, 2011

weekend trip in Colorado ~ Miranda's wedding

Planning for a trip seems to always use every minute you allow...never ending up with extra and always crunched to the last minute.  This was true for me, yet again!


I decided to "not work" on Friday: no emails...no phone calls...no paperwork...not a thing related to the business.  As a workaholic by nature, this was a difficult task and I knew saying "no" would not come easy.  So, I created "rules" for myself.  No email other than personal and only 20minutes of that in the morning before my chores so that I would not be tempted to log into my work account or do any other internet surfing, blog reading, news catching, or what have you and would only do what was pertinent.  I also left my cell phone on silent (shhhhh...don't tell my secret) so that if a call came through (and it did) it would ring and go to voicemail and I would not be tempted to respond.  I had emailed all my clients letting them know that I would be out of town on Friday and would return all calls on Monday, so this was not something that I implemented without thinking through.


When I woke up, I knew I had a lot to complete in a few short hours.  I decided not to skip my morning walk.  This has become one of the highlights of my day!  Quiet....peace...a time of reflecting, a time of sharing my heart with God, a time that I know I am setting aside to keep in shape and give my body the exercise it needs.  I walked 3 miles and enjoyed it and kept giving myself a pep talk that I would not get stressed, I would get everything done in time and that I would be ready timely for my departure.  I wish I could say I remain unstressed as the day progressed...but I didn't, however I did the best I could with my agenda.  Water the yard, do laundry, pack, pay bills, go get a pedicure, do mending while getting my feet worked on, and get ready to head out.  The ladies at the spa were intrigued by my handwork...all I was doing was sewing on buttons that were loose on the top I was going to wear at the wedding, but this is such a lost art they said they had never seen it done.  Not to pick on a culture, but I was surprised as these were Asian ladies, who typically don't pay to get things done and are very skilled.  Aunt Connie was my kind shuttle to the airport.  We left 15minutes after the time I had "set" but made it even then earlier than anticipated to the airport.  I checked my bag as I didn't want to mess with the limited ounces for a carry on, even though it was a short trip, trying to find bottles for my things and not go over the limit, was not worth the effort!  


For the first time in all my years of flying, I felt sick...very, very, very nauseated! I can't say we had the smoothest flight, but it wasn't the worst I have had either.  I arrived at the airport and caught the shuttle to the Budget rental car facility (my first time to rent a car from this company and I can't say I was impressed), stood in line 30minutes waiting to pickup my reservation and finally an hour after arriving at the airport, was on the road.  I used my GPS Navigation on my phone a ton this weekend and it was accurate EVERY SINGLE time...which made me really happy!  As one who has always "printed" Google Maps out before my trip, this was really cool not to have to do!  As I took to the road, the days exhaustion was catching up with me.  I scanned the radio and found a christian radio station (K-LOVE) to keep me awake and heard some new music (to me) which helped me stay alert and focused, plus was encouraging at a time when I was starting to lack energy and enthusiasm for my trip.  The one hour drive to Fort Collins was uneventful and I checked in at my hotel that I had booked on www.priceline.com.  I had literally just walked out of the check-in desk area when Uncle Shawn called to see where I was. He said they were just fixing to eat at the rehearsal dinner and wanted to know if I was coming. I said I was, but would be late as I had just gotten my room and needed to get ready.  I was tickled pink that I actually did get a non-smoking room as I booked and as I made myself at home, I wanted to crawl in bed and call it a day.  I dropped my things, turned the lights out and laid there for 10minutes...tears falling from complete exhaustion and a hearts desire just to stay there but knowing that the reason for my trip and prearranged plans I had made would not permit me to do this.  I ironed my white linen skirt, freshened up and was on my way.  


Arriving at the facility where the rehearsal was hosted, everyone was done eating and listening to things being said by the groom's parents, and of course my late entrance was seen by all...not really a fun way to draw attention to yourself.  The older guy that catered the meal, a friend of the groom's family, did a fabulous job!  There were several types of meats (chicken, bison and lamb) along with green salad and orange cherry tomatoes (which were so sweet), a Mediterranean salad and red & green grapes. We all the about 9.30pm (10.30pm my time)...several were headed out to Starbucks, but I opted to head to bed...no late night caffeine or sugar for me (actually neither of these are on my current diet so it really had nothing to do with late night but that was never a habit of mine even when it was on my diet for that hour)!


I slept until 4am...better than some nights of late and especially for being out of town in an unknown bed, I was pleased it was that much...not sure when I drifted off back to sleep, but was thankful that I did and that I did not wake up until 8am.  I checked out the breakfast in the hotel, other than fruit & juice, it was not food I could eat.  I had already made plans to meet Elli for breakfast and we met at Denny's not too far from the hotel at 9am.  We split a skillet dish and smoothie and sat and chatted for two hours.  
Misty & Elli
Went back to my hotel and laid down for 30minutes in the dark...can't tell you how it felt so good to do nothing!  Got up and got ready to go pickup my cousins (Dustin, Brady, Lacey & Melanie) so we could head to met the other cousins (Josh & Ashley and two of Josh's friends) for sushi downtown at a place they said was really good.  Being a sushi lover, I was really looking forward to this.  Must say that the sushi at Suehiro was good...my favorite of the two rolls I got was the Heart Attack roll.  Absolutely delish!!!  Their seaweed salad was good...but not the best I have ever had.  ;)  
Brady, Dustin, Misty, Melanie, Ashley, Lacey, Josh, Tom, and Dan
From there, I took Lacey & Melanie to the wedding site to get ready and we all hung out for a few minutes.    There were a lot of clouds forming and many with very dark looking formations that could dump their load at any time.  I was hoping that it wouldn't happen as the yard was pretty and they had put a lot of effort into getting it ready.  Dustin & Brady got a craving for DQ...so we stopped and got them some ice cream!  Then I dropped them off at their hotel and headed to mine to take a nap before getting ready for the wedding.  I actually fell asleep!  I was getting ready for the wedding and Lacey called to see if I was close as it was time for family pictures...which I had not been informed of and since I was still at the hotel, was obviously not going to make in time.  I finished getting ready and headed to the wedding site.  I arrived, checked where I was assigned to sit, and what I was supposed to do with the candle lighting process with my cousin, Dustin, then chatted with guests until the wedding started.  The weather in Colorado was absolutely lovely!!!  Felt drastically cooler than Texas and was really pretty and green!!!  It was a little "warm" in the sun as we sat outside in the yard but the sun soon went behind a cloud and sunset happened during the ceremony.  The wedding was a vintage theme of creamy lace, chocolate, blue, and tan.  There were tables for all of us to eat a catered meal after the wedding with wedding party and family having assigned seating.  There were lace table clothes on the tables, candles and calligraphy name places with little rocks to hold them in place.  The food was absolutely outstanding and provided by Food for Thought!


Here are a few photos of the wedding:

Flower Girls
Bridesmaids
Groomsmen
the wedding couple eating at their own private table
Bridesmaids Bouquet
Serving Line by Catering Company ~ Food for Thought
First Cousins ~ Misty & Miranda
official document: The Marriage License signed by Bride & Groom
ummmmmmm...payback is rough!
they walked down the isle way with everyone having sparklers lit...it was very pretty, the picture doesn't do it justice
Mischa & Kyle and Lavina & Dustin
Truman & Jessica Jean and Family
a really cute couple!  ;)  yah, I am a bit partial, I like them both a whole lot!!!

Hannah, Phoebe, and Lavina
I had not planned out being out late with my current fatigue and sleep issues...but didn't want to leave before the bride and groom left!  The couple finally got off a bit after 10pm and by the time I said my "goodbyes" it was 11pm before I was finally on the road and midnight (1am for my Texas body clock) before I got to my pillow...but oh, it felt soooooooooooo good!


The alarm went off at all too soon at 5.30am...entirely way to early! but necessary for me to get to the airport in time.  I was out of the hotel room by 6am, checked out of my room, grabbed an apple & banana and some orange juice, and was on the road by 6.15am to the airport!  Dropped off my rental car...took the shuttle to my terminal, checked my bag, went through security, got a yogurt parfait at McDonald's and was at the gate an hour early...then sleepiness hit me like a ton of bricks!  I wanted to curl up and snooze, but was so afraid to doze because the last thing I wanted to do was miss my flight.  We boarded timely and were off...(still wishing I someday will be able to sleep on a plane) I tried to read my book and only got a few pages absorbed...stop over in Amarillo...read some more pages and took notes, and arrived in Dallas right on time.  


Michelle picked me up and we stopped for a bite at Cheddar's on the way home. I had yummy Grilled Fish Tacos!  Delish!!!  We made a stop on the way home and I was at me casa at 4pm.  I had turned the air up to 80* before I left town and was concerned about how hot it would feel to me when I arrived since the Texas heat is so scorching, but thankfully, it wasn't too bad!  I can honestly tell you that I am ready for my own bed...and will be grateful to sleep with my own pillow!


I am thankful for the safe travels and the opportunity to go and support Miranda Joy & James Nathan Epperson in their marriage to each other!  You always wish you could "have more time"...but in light of many things right now with me, my health and my work, the time was enough.

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

verse to reflect on...

“Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be the glory . . .” (Eph. 3:20-21a)

That ought to change your outlook / my outlook. He is able to do! Who? The One who lives in us. 

Are you having one of those days? The “power” is working in you. The “power” comes from God. The “power” is our Hope: Christ in you / me!

I want to remember that “the One who is in me is greater than” whatever I am facing today.

Monday, August 1, 2011

choose a lens to view your life

I used to follow lots of blogs...my sidebar on my blog actually still shows I do, but in reality, I don't.  In a quest to simplify my life, I have limited the emails I subscribe to, what I blogs I read, and in a nutshell just truly the way I spend my time and what I do.  I read this blog post on Choose a Lens to View Your Life today...and it spoke to me.  You can read the post here.  The line I want to think on:


The lens and filters we choose to view life all come down to one thing. Attitude. When it seems like the circumstances of your life are dulling your view, remember you choose how to see the world.

Quotes

“No one has ever become poor by giving.”
― Anne Frank

Thursday, July 28, 2011

verse to reflect on...

‎[my own version of these verses] 
I am fighting the good fight, I am working on the race, I am trying to keep the faith. For I know there is in store for me the crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous Judge, will award to me on that day...
- 2 Timothy 4:7-8

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

I heard from Terry...

many of you knew of my request for prayers for my brother Terry about two months ago when I said that I knew something was wrong as I was not getting responses from him via text message and all calls were going straight to voicemail.

I received an call from him Sunday night (two nights ago) after I was in bed and asleep.  The voicemail said he was sorry that he had not talked to me in quite some time, he has been restricted to make non-business phone calls on his cell phone before 8am and after 5pm per my parents instructions.  They are trying to "prepare him for the working environment".   [Ummm...let me refrain from comment.]  The voicemail didn't explain the nearly eight week lapse in communication.  With a two hour time zone difference and the above information, I wasn't able to return the phone call until last night.  He broke down in tears, said he missed me and really appreciates me.  The drama story condensed into the pertinent facts is a domestic verbal incident occurred between my mom and brother, a request was made for him to move out in 15 days, fear and other feelings overtook my brother, mom called 911 because of the confused state Terry was in, he was taken to the hospital and went thru the process of evaluation for suicide, drug overdose, therapy, counseling, and rehab services.  All of this is familiar territory for him and in this case all was negative and paranoia on behalf of my mom.  After 6 weeks of this treatment, he is back home and things are calm as of this moment, according to my brothers account.  Please continue to be in prayer for all parties.

It would have been nice to have received a general explanation when I attempted weeks ago to obtain a status update of the situation instead of being told that this information would not be discussed with me.  I truly do have a heart and truly do love and care for Terry to succeed in spite of his continued behavior disturbances and set backs.  I pray that some day Terry will see that He has the power through God to be a different person.  May God continue to give me wisdom and strength to deal with my ongoing family drama.

Quotes

Live Without Pretending
Love Without Depending
Listen Without Defending
Speak Without Offending

Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Monday, July 25, 2011

Quotes

Deny your weakness, and you will never realize God's strength in you.  
- Joni Eareckson Tada

Saturday, July 23, 2011

how to respond to this message?

When you get a message that you don't know how to respond to, what do you do?  I got a couple text messages that fell in this group.  I had wished someone a Happy Birthday two weeks ago.  Today I got a response:


I did nothing special; it was not a 'special day'. You don't know who I am. I don't celebrate my birthday.  Its just another day I'ld like to forget. I hate my birthday and I wish everyone else would forget about it & never remember it again.  I don't feel special when someone says 'happy birthday'.  I feel mocked.  Remembering me 1 day out of the 365, doesn't cancel out being forgotten-or-UNIMPORTANT the other 364! Its retarded!


How do you tell someone their anger at life is evident?  How do you tell someone that they are special, God created them and that this is the day that is yours to remember your birth and another year to serve Him?  How do you tell someone that they are remembered & loved by me, daily, yes 365 days a year even if only notified occasionally?  How do you tell someone that when you get messages like this it creates distance, hurt and pain?  How do you tell someone that you know life is hard but that God gives Strength, Love and Courage for this Journey?  


I don't have the answers...because I have tried and I continue to get these responses.  I pray that God will show me how to help this sibling who is struggling beyond words and is angry at God and life.

Friday, July 22, 2011

Quotes

Its not the load that breaks you down, it's the way that you carry it.  - Lena Horne

Thursday, July 21, 2011

my notes from The Great Recovery

Tonight there was a live webcast on a speech Dave Ramsey gave on the economy and the need for recovery called The Great Recovery.  The following is my notes from this event.


Recovery doesn't fix itself.  It takes focus.  It takes work.  It takes effort.  The one true source of Recovery is God.  When there is a fight you have to run towards it not from it.  Right now is all the time we have.
- Jon Acuff


The bible calls you a fool if you spend all your money.  Start handling money God's ways...and you are ready to be prosperous!  Your life works when you do it God's ways, 100% of the time.  God is not a liar...in fact He is crazy about you!


Our people are struggling not the economy, but with hopelessness.  Proverbs 13:12 Hope deffer-ed makes the heart sink.  Have a plan.


God is the author of our Hope.  God is our provider.  He uses me to provide for me...manna doesn't just show up on my door step.  Prayer is not an excuse to not work.


The diligent prosper.  Diligence is excellence over time with discipline!


If you read Proverbs over and over again, you will have a Master's Degree in Finance. Cause and Effect...God's ways work!
- Dave Ramsey

quest for no stress...

will you join me in my quest for NO STRESS? 
none. 
zip. 
zero. 
zilch. 
notta. 
nothing going with stress.
Hakuna Matata

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

thought for the day...

Depend on it, God's work done in God's way will never lack God's supplies. 
- J. Hudson Taylor

thought for the day...

To find out what God's will is for you, you have to seek His wisdom, His will, His guidance, His understanding...this means you have a relationship to be able to get this from Him.