I would have lost heart...yet again

I would have lost heart...when I had to fight for 3.5 years with the Honda dealership over prepaid maintenance that I paid for but was charged each and every time I came in (11 times), unless I believed that if I was patient and kept sticking to the documents and asking for resolution, I would win and the situation would get resolved in my favor.

I would have lost heart...when I got bitten by dogs, over a span of 10 years, 3 different times, from my landlord when I was renting, to two guys walking at the track where I work out often, to an event at my employee's house in her backyard; particularly because I was injured each time and incurred medical bills ranging from hundreds to thousands of dollars, for something that was not my fault each and every time, unless I remember that not everyone will do unto others what they want done unto them and take care of a moral and financial obligation.

I would have lost heart...when I had hives for nearly 2 Years, unable to figure out what was causing them after multiple tests, products, medications, creams, injections, and every alternative medical treatment under the sun, unless I believed that if continued to keep a food journal, paid attention to my body, was loving and kind to myself during these episodes which they traveled all over my body, that eventually I would learn and uncover the cause.

I would have lost heart...when a client hit me in the head twice for stating a fact about the work I was doing and our contract agreement, unless I believed that God would use this in my life to help me heal by opening up and doing counseling about the years of childhood abuse and this would start the beginning of my transformational journey.

I would have lost heart...when my credit card company posted my $2,000 payment as a $2,000 charge and put a hold on my credit card for 2 weeks while they researched it, unless I believed that if I was patient and asked for leadership to intervene, the issues would get resolved much more quickly.

I would have lost heart in all these things and more...unless....

Unless, I choose to walk in the truth of keeping no record of wrongs.

Unless, I choose to forgive.

Unless, I choose to live out what grace looks like.

Unless, I choose to be relentless in my pursuit of excellence.

Unless, I choose to have the grit and mental discipline to live a life full of love.

Yesssssss...unless I create my own power of choice and free will to be an overcomer and not a victim.

...I would have despaired and lost heart, unless I had not believed! ~ Psalm 27:13 AMP
#TheSassyVoice #DontQuit #KeepTheFaith #GodsPlan #HaveFaith #Believe

I would have lost heart...again...and again...

I would have lost heart...when I got diagnosed with Moderately Severe Depression February 2017, unless I believe this would help me learn more about myself and help me love myself more.

I would have lost heart...when I didn't have the strength to do my everyday chores, due to endless fatigue and sleepless nights, unless I believe that I can have gratitude in all things was something I could actually do and not just a good idea to implement or talk about.

I would have lost heart...when I gave $23k to a Girlfriends Non-Profit to fund projects I am passionate about after my 1st Mission Trip, leaving $300 in my Business Checking Account, cutting me out of her life with no chance of discussion, reconciliation, forgiveness, unless I believe that true love never fails and that this doesn't have to be just left to Jesus.

I would have lost heart...when I was questioned in a deposition about forging someone's signature unless I had a clear conscious and knew I had never forged anyone's signature at any time ever in my whole life and somehow God would have the truth be exposed.

I would have lost heart...when I decided to terminate my Medical Billing Services after being in the Industry for 20 Years and it being one of the main sources of revenue in my business for almost 13 Years, unless I believed that God was working out a better plan for me to have less stress in my life, even if that meant not having any discretionary income and even having to implement a very tight budget which meant no monthly travel like I've done the last 2 Years.

I would have lost heart...when people criticize what I post on Facebook and don't try to learn my perspective, don't see my heart, don't want to love even in disagreements, don't appreciate my vulnerability and desire to create connection, unless I knew that to make a ripple effect like Jesus means you won't be liked or be received much of the time and that the truth is that God is asking me to follow Him, not you.

I would have lost heart...in ALL of these things and more, unless I believed that when you experience a breakdown this allows you to fully have a breakthrough, to more fully grow into a deeper, courageous, beautiful and loving person if you let it.

...unless.

Unless, I believed God would be faithful to complete His work in me.

Unless, I believed God would help me get through this too.

Unless, I believed I could hold on and find strength to whether this storm, pain and challenge.

Unless, I believed that I would become stronger by all that I am facing.

Yesssssss...

...I would have despaired and lost heart, unless I had not believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord! ~ Psalm 27:13 AMP

#TheSassyVoice #DontQuit #KeepTheFaith #GodsPlan #HaveFaith #Believe

what does it mean to be vulnerable?

Being vulnerable and sharing your heart doesn't mean you are weak...it means you are being honest. You are willing to quit living in a mask and be open, authentic and truly live in reality. It means you know you have dark deep work to do. It means you aren't willing to be like everyone else and just accept status quo. It means you are willing to face your FEARS and do the difficult process of digging deep.

Just because you have fears and false perceptions doesn't mean you have self pity for your situation or that you are a negative person because you have fears. Having fears allows you to develop your courage and press through them.

LiveBIG friends!
#CreateTheLifeYouWant #LiveIntentionally #Authenticity #LiveBIG #ADifferentPerspective

I would have lost heart...again...

I would have lost heart...when my parents told me I was never welcome back in their home...unless I believed that I could have a better life for myself, one full of love, peace, harmony, joy, and happiness - the abundant life that God has given me, and to walk away after 20 years of abuse wasn't wrong.

I would have lost heart...when I shared how to have gratitude in the moment through painful experiences on a VLOG in November 2016 [something I truly believe in and live every single day], yet it offended one of my examples, though they never listened to the video and simply took the words of someone else that I was "talking about them", got offended and cut me out of their life completely and haven't made any effort to resolve this in the last 2 months [and yes, I have reached out multiple times]...unless I believed that real authentic loving relationships will talk through all conflict, will desire to be kind even when hurt, will work through the pain and restore healing, will be willing to love in the method and manner they wish to be loved, and when they can't or don't respond right - they will still be willing to forgive and try again because this is what God asks of us.

I would have lost heart...when I spent money I shouldn't have spent, bought things I didn't need, put my hope in things instead of relationships because of the emotional pain they caused me, made things a status of success because I was taught this was important, and ended up with $26k in Credit Card debt...unless I believed that I could do the hard work to change and become debt free with discipline and a budget.

I would have lost heart...when a girlfriend didn't agree with my method of dating, felt I was in the wrong relationship, believed I was making bad choices...unless I believed that God would guide me and direct me on how to walk my own path with the input of many individuals, not just the opinion of one person trying to make me live life her way.

I would have lost heart...when I was told by a Girlfriend [who had never met my Mother and only knew her through the things I had shared] that I was just like my Mother...unless I new the truth about myself, believed that I had the power to be different through learning from others, studying relationships, choosing to keep the good things and letting go of the bad, praying for direction, practicing different ways of living, remembering the things I didn't like and choosing to be different.

I would have lost heart...when clients went weeks and months not making payments for services I rendered...unless I learned the lesson that as along as I accepted that behavior and didn't talk through and create new boundaries and stick to the terms in my contract that there was a late fee if they didn't pay in 10 days, I would continue to have to accept being treated this way.

I would have lost heart...when life got messy, ugly things happened, hurtful things were said, chaos unraveled, people walked out of my life, finances got tight, health issues continued, many nights I couldn't sleep, and life consumed my heart and mind.

...unless.

Unless, I looked to Jesus!

Unless I asked Jesus:
- to help me through the dark moments
- to take my anxiety
- to bare my troubles on His shoulders
- to give me grace
- to help me sort through my pain, my hurt, my confusion
- to renew my lack of hope
- to help me see the good in these situations and to grow from it
- to lift my depression
- to resolve my frustration
- to give me clarity and wisdom to know how to fix my mistakes
- to show me how to love deeper, more fully, and openly when that was the last thing that seemed possible in these things...

Yesssssss...because of Jesus...

...I would have despaired and lost heart, unless I had not believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord! ~ Psalm 27:13 AMP
#TheSassyVoice #DontQuit #KeepTheFaith #GodsPlan #HaveFaith#Believe

I would have lost heart...

I would have lost heart...when my employer fired me for a blog post on my personal blog August 2010...unless I knew what I had written wasn't wrong or out of place or dishonest, but in reality it was his excuse for letting me go for not lying and covering for him to the partner of the business.

I would have lost heart...when I filed unemployment and the claim was denied and I had to appeal it...unless I believed God had my back and I would win the appeal with additional facts.

I would have lost heart...when a girlfriends husband reached over and put his hand on my upper thigh in the middle of watching a movie with him and his wife when I was over at their place for New Years Eve...unless I believed that God wanted me to work through my fears of men again on a deeper level and to show me that I was strong, that I had to honor my values and integrity and ask him to confess to his wife (not knowing that she had seen him do it) and if he didn't, I would.

I would have lost heart...when a client didn't pay me after doing 5 years of accounting within a 4 month time frame to release the pending IRS lien on their business, forcing me to file a lawsuit to get paid...unless I understood that not everybody keeps their word and not everyone is ethical in how they do business.

I would have lost heart...when I found my boyfriend texting a previous girlfriend "I frequently think of you and your gorgeous butt."...unless I believed God was showing me signs that he wasn't committed to this relationship like I was and these were ways that he was giving me clues that this wasn't the man God had for me to avoid further heartache and emotional pain in my life.

I would have lost heart...when a terminated employee kept client files and ignored all communication from me...unless I believed God was having me go through something that was going to teach me a valuable lesson.

I would have lost heart...when life got messy, ugly things happened, hurtful things were said, chaos unraveled, people walked out of my life, finances got tight, health issues continued, many nights I couldn't sleep, and life consumed my heart and mind.

...unless.

Unless, I believed in God.

Yesssssss...

...I would have despaired and lost heart, unless I had not believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord! ~ Psalm 27:13 AMP

#TheSassyVoice #DontQuit #KeepTheFaith #GodsPlan #HaveFaith #Believe

movie review ~ Priceless

I am a huge fan of the Band For King and Country.  So when I learned they were producing a movie about how each of us are Priceless and Worthy, I was anxious to see it. And so when I was tagged in an activity for the Gateway Church Singles for some Friday Night Fun, I said "I'm in".

I hadn't watched the Priceless Movie Trailer.  I had only read articles about the basics of the film.  I promise you, if I had seen the details in the few minutes of a clip of it, I wouldn't have gone.  If I had known the full plot, I wouldn't have gone.  But I didn't do my research. I trusted that this was something encouraging to see.

Before I launch in further, please know that this post is MY OPINION of the 60 minutes I saw of the film.  Because yes, I walked out!  This post isn't meant to discourage you from seeing it if you want to, but I am going to tell you that it is raw, horrific and tragic, and though I am told it has a redemptive ending, from the pieces I saw and the remaining I was told about, I do not believe it creates the result of something that I want in my life.  So, if you asked me if I would recommend you see it, the answer is not just no, but hell no!!!

I know that I probably stayed longer then I would have if I had gone by myself because I was with Friends.  And I was hoping the film would get better because I know it takes time to create a plot and build a story line.  But when it got to the scene of the Man and the Girl sitting on the bed and he started his controlling behaviors, creating mind games with her, twisting the meaning of what love is and telling her she didn't have a choice in this and he was going to have her.  I was more then done.  

She had a voice and told him that this wasn't love.  He said that it was up to her to decide what she believed Love was.  That's the line that drew it in the sand for me.

I was like, yes, heck yes, I get to decide what love is!  I get to decide what is good for me.  And this isn't love and this isn't good for me!

I got up.  

I walked out.

Right then.  Not a second more.

I was done.  

Gone.

This movie was painful to watch. It took me down memory lane and experiences that I have already lived as a person and I don't want to watch a movie around a theme like this. It took me back to situations I have left and done my best to heal from.  It has made me feel trauma in a whole new way.  

Triggers cannot always be predicted, but they will come, even if you have gone through healing because the level of healing always has a deeper layer, another strand, another perspective, another root.

Am I aware that the world wide problem of Sex Trafficking is extensive?  Yes.  

Do I believe that more education and awareness needs to be done on this topic?  Yes.  

Do I believe that more could be done to help those involved in it and victims of it?  Yes.

However, in my opinion, there are better ways to tell a redemptive story and not make people live horrific scenes images, words, emotions, raw energy, concepts, beliefs, and that help me learn something to apply to my life. We know these and more situations exist. But a redemptive movie that is effective has a way to make a lesson to any and all without taking you through trash to get there.

Example: War Room showed a struggle in a marriage but it lived out the way praying for a Spouse and Family and your own life changes things. It helped one to realize the power of prayer and what happens when you have increased faith.

What did this movie, Priceless, teach me? 

What did this movie, Priceless, help me to learn about my own life? 

What was the lesson to encourage, support and inspire me in my walk with God?  My life with Friends?  

What did this movie, Priceless, do to create a desire for peace, love and kindness?

You say we need more education on Sex Trafficking.  So if I take that line of logic, you are saying that I should see a movie that shows people being killed and stabbed to death in a Gay Club because society isn't aware this happens and it is such an issue and we need need a better perspective to awaken us?

Or you say that I should see a movie about affairs and relationships being torn apart and marriages ruined because it isn't enough that we see this happening all around us?  I should watch a play that shows me how this happens?

You are telling me that I should be filling my mind with drama and angry words and images because it helps me grow to be a better person? Stronger in my faith? More courageous in my Spirit? More loving in my actions? Kinder in my relationships? More patient and forgiving with one another?

I say F that!

Someone that saw the movie with me said to me, well at least it didn't have nudity and profanity. And to think that you/we/others justify this saying it didn't have nudity and profanity is better than Sex Trafficking? As Donald Trump would say: WRONG!!!

I pray every single person who has seen this film will stop and think about their life. This is not a funny matter, and yes, I've been triggered deep in my soul.  I've been there.  I lived this.  No not with multiple partners, but does that matter?  One was more than enough.

People say that the Christian World needs a wake up call, and they may, but let me tell you something, this isn't the way to do it!

Don't be afraid to stand up and walk out of a movie if it isn't feeling your soul with things that matter to you.

Don't be afraid to put only good things in your life that help you create the life you want.

Don't be afraid to go against the crowd.  Following the masses doesn't bring peace.  Knowing you are living your truth does.

Be you.

Fear of Failure and Rejection

Fear of failure and rejection is a universal feeling. Everyone experiences these fears at some point in their lives. As long as we use fear as a drive to overcome, to get back up and keep moving forward even when it seems impossible, or to open up our hearts and trust again, we can achieve the success and acceptance we have been searching for in business, love or whatever it is that is important to us.

When we fail or experience rejection, the tendency is to close ourselves off by putting walls up around us, tell ourselves we aren't talented, capable or worthy enough to have what we want and sadly...give up on our dreams and aspirations.

The rationale is that if you protect yourself in this way, you ensure that you will never get hurt again by another person and if you don't get back up and try again, then you won't experience failure. But isn't that failure in itself? As adopting this attitude absolutely ensures you NEVER have what it is you had always envisioned you would. Shutting everyone out and resigning yourself to the fact that you will stop trying so as not to taste the bitterness of failure seals your fate of never being able to connect with another or achieving the goals you once had.

The courage to allow ourselves to become vulnerable again is actually the key to having any chance at reaching our goals, whether they be business, personal, or relationship related.

Most people see vulnerability as a weakness, when it is in fact indicative of how strong, courageous and determined you are to get what you know you want and deserve. Allowing yourself to be completely vulnerable and opening yourself up 100% no matter what pain or rejection you experience in life is the only way you are going to be able to connect the way you want to to someone, if that is your goal, or land that business opportunity you likely would not have otherwise, if you hadn't put yourself in a situation outside your comfort level. That is the risk (or courage) it takes to enable you to meet that person that could give you the opportunity of a life time as they are able to see your ambition and drive to succeed, and recognize that what you have to offer is exactly what they have been looking for!

Don't be intimidated by fear, but rather be courageous IN fear. When you fall, get back up, staying in your vulnerability. After all, if you don't have what you have always wanted, you have nothing to lose right? You are absolutely here for a purpose and deserve whatever it is you are willing to work for. So live with passion and purpose and go get what it is you deserve! But it's up to you! Kick fear to the curb! You can do it! - Holly Kempton
‪#‎NoFear‬ ‪#‎BeCourageous‬ ‪#‎LiveWithPassion‬ ‪#‎PursueYourDreams‬‪#‎CreateTheLifeYouWant‬ ‪#‎LiveIntentionally‬

reality of negative self talk

I posted this today Facebook:

The LiveBIG Mastery Coaching Call was desperately needed for me today. Facing some extreme negative self talk since returning from LiveBIG. Irritated with myself for having this issue. Frustrated that this is my default pattern. The fight for having courage and facing my fears is great!!! Please pray for me! I wanna be courageous, generous and loving.


As the day wore on, I then posted this on Facebook:

LOVE my LiveBIG buddies!!! I so NEEDED you today.

"Misty, you are breath of fresh air...you are truth...you are a song. Your past and people don't define you. You are a blessing! Let it spread into your heart. Do you trust God? You have to show it. Let go of your generational crap." - Brandee Thornton Burt

..."you have to hold hands with your shadow self" - Denise Blaylock

"Misty you are a beautiful, confident, inspiring woman!" - Shana Galbraith

"My whole family is inspired by you. Love you girl!!!!!" - Debbie Loosle Abbott

Day 25 Video Challenge

Determination is a key to success, it is a key to achieving goals, to have motivation, to achieve excellence.  Today I share my thoughts on Determination in my video challenge.  You can watch it here.

What are you determined to do?  May I encourage you to be determined to be courageous, be generous, be loving, and LiveBIG!

why do you stalk me?

My journey this year is focused on changing me.  To a greater level.  I am determined to work through my intense crap.  

Because I have made this choice and am avidly focused on clearing out the junk, discovering the truth, affirming the positive, rewriting my story, changing my focus, and believing what I discover; I am finding that I am facing even more challenges on the very things that have created fears.  Deep fears.  Hurt.  Deep hurt.

How can this be?  It's like I am asking for these challenges to increase, but I truly haven't asked for that to happen.  I had enough already.  It's like they are coming at me to try to make me sink, to drown me in the waves, to make me contemplate giving up.

How can this be???  Is it some sort of joke?  Because I am serious about this, you want to make me prove it?  Believe I like a challenge, but this seems to be creating a sickness in the pit of my stomach that I am not sure how to resolve.

You see I have issues with guys.  It's a known fact.  In a work setting, no problem.  I am in my zone and can communicate with you on your level.  In fact, I have been told you will be blown away by how I interact with you.  In an networking setting, no problem as long as we at some point can talk about business, employees, budgets, goals, and other like work stuff.  In a social setting, no problem as long as you are someone I know and who is married to one of my girlfriends.  You are single and you seem to wanna hang around and keep staring at me and looking me down?  This I avoid.

In working through why I have such fears of this I have tried to just face them so that I can find the answers and locate the truth.  I haven't totally figured out the whys, even if rape was part of the picture, I don't believe its all of the picture.  

I decided that I needed to take the compliments and not fight them.  I would accept them and not act like a snob.  I would be kind, but firmly define my boundaries.  Not the ones you want me to have, but the ones I want.  The ones that make me happy.  I am not obligated to get to know you.  I am not obligated to give you a chance.  I have a choice in whom I want to date. I have a choice IF I even want to date.  I will believe I am beautiful and not a piece of meat even if you look at me in such a manner.

But how do you truly work through this type of intense crap when someone doesn't get you are not interested in them?  When they sit in their car watching you walk/run at the track?  When they move their car to the other end of the parking lot to get a better view?  When you ignore them and keep running laps they then park right by the entrance forcing you to acknowledge them when you have to walk across the driveway?  And then when they follow you home?  

Oh hell!  You are now making me sick.  Really sick.  You are making me want to run.  FAST.  To forget that I am important.  To forget that there is something better on the other side of this mess.  You are making me second guess why I had this resolve to face my fears.

Then I remember why I took two rounds of self defense classes because of guys like you!  Don't even think of it dude, I will take you down.  I am not playing games.  This might make me sick, but I refuse to be afraid of you. I might have been at one time, but you will not win. 

Every bit of confidence I was working on creating and developing is being challenged to my very core, but believe me when I say I am determined to win.  

Because I love ME!  
And because ME is worth it.  
And because God is with ME and he wants me to win.

That's why.

Day 11 Video Challenge

Each of us have experienced things that we have given a meaning and a definition to.  Those definitions create triggers, which create reactions.  Many times those reactions are negative and we form a negative belief system from these experiences.  As we work through processing what we want to keep and what we want to get rid of, we have to delete some files.  We have to trash the ugly stuff.  We have to attempt to reformat the hard drive.  We have to increase the positive belief system to overwrite the negative belief system.

Each of us have a belief system.  What tools are you using to create a new belief system for yourself?  I would love to learn from you and hear how you do this.  

You can listen to my thoughts on this in today's video here.

Day 10 Video Challenge

Yesterday I asked you if you are wallowing in your crap or are you letting your crap build you a beautiful garden?  

Sometimes during and in that process it creates growing pains, difficulties, hardships, hurts deep, and even creates more pain then what you already had.  We tend to fight the pain.  However if we were to give into the pain and understand the pain is what is necessary and needed for us to have healing; without us having that experience we don't get the life, blood to the wound, strength, encouragement, and to create healing.

In our relationship with God, sometimes we try to do this all on our own and fight going to him for our strength to have him help us work through the cleansing and healing that needs to happen in our life.  Instead we need to go to him for the strength in the process.

I am going through one of those tough spells.  Those times when you can't shake that funk.  Those times when you can't figure out what all is making life unbearable.  Difficult.  Hard.  Challenging.  Frustrating.  When all you want to do is cry.

Sure, some of it is understood.  Challenges with clients.  Issues with triggers.  Issues with my past.  Issues with relationships.  Issues with negative thoughts.  Issues with being overwhelmed.  Issues with sleep.  Overall, just issues with life.  I pray that through the next few days I can understand more what message God is wanting me to hear and that I will be in tune to my connection with him to be ready to accept his message.

I just want to remind you today to give into the pain.  As you do, you will experience the healing.  It is hard, difficult and challenging.  Through the painful process you will get to a day that you are healed and it won't be the pain you have now.

You can listen to today's video post here.

Day 9 Video Challenge

I had time with a friend Monday night...we went and ate sushi.  In our conversation, I got to share my experience with her.  I got very emotional in recounting this to her.  The LiveBIG Conference I went to January 2014 has really impacted my world!

I have 3 tickets to give away, and have so far given 1 away.  I really dig this LiveBIG experience!  It is one of a handful of things that truly has impacted my world in a huge way...and I share a few reasons why, and I share that I am working through my intense crap.  I give an analogy of this process...and I ask:

Are you wallowing in your crap or are you building a beautiful garden out of this manure? 

You can watch this video here as I talk about it.  

I would love you to give you an opportunity to go to a LiveBIG conference if it is something that you want to do if you are determined to change your world, as much as I am determined to.  YOU CAN LIVE BIG!  Go for it friends. I love you!

Day 8 Video Challenge

Here is the all NEW ME!

I watched the first two hours of the Oscars last night, for the first time.  I enjoyed it.  It was fun to critique these speakers.  I talk about my review of Ellen, the host, in this video.  I also share a conversation I had with one of the LiveBIG Coaches, Tony Litster on Perfection vs Improvement.

I share some thoughts here.  Are you striving to be perfect or are you trying to improve?

LiveBIG today!

Day 7 Video Challenge

My hair has always been long, very long, and is naturally curly...its something I have always LOVED.  I decided to face my fears, cut it and donate my hair to Locks of Love.  You can watch the video here as I talk about this experience.  

It is an amazing feeling!!!  Very light.  Can't keep my hands off of it.  Here is the all NEW ME!

Be Courageous.  Be Generous.  Be Loving.  LiveBIG!

Day 6 Video Challenge

Today I talk about how Spring, Summer, Fall and Winter are seasons in nature that we get to experience various aspects of change.  I love to think about the analogy of the seasons in nature and encourage you to look at your life the same way.  Just as it says in Ecclesiastes, our lives will have a time for everything.  

Enjoy the season of life you are in and make the most of it as you live on your courageous journey!  

You can watch my message to you here.

Day 5 Video Challenge

Today I answer how you work through focusing on and working through your triggers so that you know how to change your reactions.  

Ask yourself why do you feel like that?  
Why am I reacting this way?
What can I do to change how I am feeling?
What is the truth?

Look at your reactions, then figure out your triggers, to understand your meaning and definition from the experiences you have experienced in your life.

You can listen to that here.

Day 4 Video Challenge

Today I talk about my determination to face my fears.  I share with you that I have had fears my entire life.  However, my working through these fears many times were just in a way to launch in and ignore the feelings, just shoving them in the corner.  I am learning and working through tools I learned recently at a conference to change my negative belief system.

Each of us have patterns of experiences that lead to a definition and a meaning that we put on it.  That meaning becomes how I am reacting, and I don't like that.  I want to be different!  Every day we can be different, just like the Olympics, if we focus on doing something every day to be a little bit better and to improve ourselves.

I encourage you to look at your life, find one fear that you feel is out there and what is one thing you can do to change that fear?

You can listen to today's video here.

Day 3 Video Challenge

Here we go...Day 3 of my Video Challenge.  

I share today that we all have fears and many times we ask ourselves questions like "What If?".  Many times we spend so much time thinking about the "What If's" that if we think we will encounter if we try to face our fears vs what would happen if we just launched into it without thinking.  We just might get to experience something different!  [Like Frito Pie.]  I share how I am working on inviting myself to join you, dropping over to your place, enjoying my friendship with you because you are my friend.  I love to be with my friends, but actually initiating this is hard for me.  I am facing my fears and doing what is uncomfortable and today I share with you current ways I am living down my fears on this courageous journey.  

You can watch today's video here.

Day 2 Video Challenge

So yesterday I faced my fears. I did a video for 0.18 seconds.  Short.  Sweet.  

The result?  An incredible response!!!

Over 100 likes on Facebook.  Over 40 comments.  Many private conversations through Facebook Messaging, texting, emails, and calls.  

This I did not expect.  

Why?  Because my fears have held me back from engaging with you. My fears have made me not able to encourage you the way I want to in my heart.  My fears have told me I am not good enough.  My fears have told me I am not wanted.  My fears have told me I am not worthy.  My fears have told me things for years.  My fears are wrong.  My fears have made me believe lies that aren't true.  

What would I have gotten out of my day yesterday if I had not faced my fears and not shared with you in a verbal format that I love you?  

Nothing.

What would you have gotten from me not sharing?

Nothing.

Once again, I have faced my fears head on.  I am going to live down the feeling I get by being on video.  I am determined to do a great job at this, and perfect the job I do.  By actually facing my fears, this only made more of an impact on my life, not less. 

I want to show you my courageous heart.  

These videos are raw, unedited, unplanned, unrehearsed.  Today I share with you what I consider facing your fears to be.  You can listen to it here.