results of natural chemo?

...before you panic, no, I don't have cancer, the kind that you can treat with true chemo (at least that I am aware of).  The last two months, I have been experiencing hair loss of a level never before.  When you tell people, you get typical responses, "Yah, I know what you mean, I do too."  I hate to tell you this, but I don't think that you are having the amount I am.  Even if you are, it doesn't change the fact I am.  Take a look:

hair loss for 1 random Day

hair loss 2 Days later

When I told my doctor the first part of February of my concern, he notated it, but didn't seem to be alarmed until my second visit when I produced pictures of the amount of hair loss.  Let me say his facial expression and level of deep concern by what he said communicated things beyond words to me.  One of my girlfriends does a lot of research and she had sent me something she read about  my condition that I printed and gave him wondering if it would be helpful to me.  He is going to research it and let me know on my next visit as at this time he/we are not sure what is causing it since I don't feel stressed (believe me, I know what stress is) but we know that I have Endometriosis which is a disease that forms like Breast Cancer does (it is something I have battled since my childhood), along with adrenal fatigue and other hormone issues.  These things may be causing stress on my body that I can't "feel".  The Endometriosis is continuing to wreck havoc on other areas of my hormones.  They have been changing my medications and in November 2011 took me off hormones I had been on for the bulk of my life, this may be a result of that...it may be something else.  


I am determined to not get stressed about it, but when your hair is a third of what it used to be it is hard to not just cry.  


It is hard to put it up in hairstyles that are a bold reminder of what it is now...a 2" flimsy bun vs a 5" thick bun (I have not actually measured it, but I can guarantee you it is drastic).


It is hard to want to touch it because a wad just might end up in your hands. 


It is hard to want to care for it out of fear you may be bald very soon.  


Just like other areas of my life that are not as I dream of it to be, that are difficult, cause pain, create fear, produce regret, bring concern...I try to find ways to cope, ways to acknowledge the facts, create peace and be positive about it.  I try to remember that God has a plan, even if I don't understand it.  I am determined to look at this as something my body is doing because it is better for me with the hope and possibility of new growth coming soon!  


I would be lying if I said I didn't miss my thick curly hair.  


I want answers to curing my Endometriosis and since it is related to a type of cancer, I want to find a natural way to cure it.  There has to be a way!  I trust that God is allowing me to go through Natural Chemo with my hair loss and that I can find a Natural Chemo method to fight this disease that is like cancer.     


So I am on a journey of Natural Chemo!  ;)

Quotes

God follows your Facebook Fan page and he likes, likes, likes.


-Jon Acuff

verse to reflect on...

If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.


- James 1:5 NIV 

Quotes

Keep your feet on the ground and your thoughts at lofty heights.

― Peace Pilgrim

thought for the day

Are the people in your life fountains or drains?

song ~ one god

One God
by Phil Wickham


One God, one God, one God
Mighty Creator, You give us life
Wonderful Savior, from death You rise
Glory and Honor belong to You alone

[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricenter.com/e54704-phil_wickham~one_god_lyrics.html ]
There's only one God who can make the stars
One God who saves our hearts
One God You reign over all
There's only one God who can set us free
One God alive in me
One God You reign over all

Father of mercy, You break the chains
Now there is victory in Jesus name
Glory and Honor belong to You alone

There's only one God who can make the stars
One God who saves our hearts
One God You reign over all
There's only one God who can set us free
One God alive in me
One God You reign over all

You alone are God (You reign forever)
You alone are God (You reign forever)
You alone are God

There's only one God who can make the stars
One God who saves our hearts
One God

One God who can make the stars
One God who saves our hearts
One God You reign over all
There's only one God who can set us free
One God alive in me
One God You reign over all

You alone are God (You reign forever)
You alone are God (You reign forever)
You alone are God

verse to reflect on...

Be on your guard; stand firm in the faith; be courageous; be strong.


- I Corinthians 16:13 NIV

Quotes

Kind words do not cost much. They never blister the tongue or lips. They make other people good-natured. They also produce their own image on men's souls, and a beautiful image it is.

- Blaise Pascal, Writer

the most beautiful people...

Quotes

"Communication is a skill that you can learn. It's like riding a bicycle or typing. If you're willing to work at it, you can rapidly improve the quality of every part of your life."

- Brian Tracy, Author

reflections on the Book of Ruth

I was listening to a message on the book of Ruth.  It was interesting to get some of the points out of it that I had not gotten before...maybe it was because of the way the speaker spoke or the things that brought them to focus.  


What is the bigger picture of the details in our life?  We live in the details, data and happenings of our life.  Do get the meaning?  There is a pattern and meaning.  You have to look at the context.  Every detail and every choice of every day is being woven into the work of the story of your life.  The book of Ruth shows that in its short story.


Naomi didn't want to be called by her name because she felt the Lord had inflicted her and brought misfortune on her.  These circumstances made her very bitter.  She felt God was punishing her.  She wanted to be called Mara instead.  I find it interesting that she was complaining to the the Lord in her heart, attitude and words; instead of being grateful that she had family to go back to.


Ruth was an outsider to Naomi's relatives and family.  She showed faithfulness to her Mother In Law.  She was bold in her message of wanting God to be her God, she doesn't care about the stigma of going back to Israel.  Boaz instructed her to glean of his fields, not others.  He instructed the men to not lay hands on her.  He was impressed by what she did for her Mother In Law and wanted her to be blessed of the Lord.  Boaz was known to be hardworking, generous and protective, an older guy, not thinking he was very attractive, but he built a reputation of doing what is right.  Naomi was impressed at Boaz's care shown to Ruth and gave instructions to Ruth to dress up and go and lay at Boaz's feet when he was sleeping.  Ruth had been wearing plain clothes, no perfume and oils because she had been in morning over the loss of her husband and Naomi wanted her to not go to Boaz in that type of attire.  Ruth fights customs and shows that she wants someone to protect her.  Boaz knew the chain of command and knew that someone else was ahead of him in the family line.


When you think about these events, what would have happened if Ruth had not gone with her Mother In Law?  Ruth made choices.  God worked his story in the "random" details of their choices.  Those small decisions were how God worked out the big story.  His story of Redemption.  Do you look for the finger prints of God in your life, everyday? How is God working in my life?  How is he using the people in my life to build the bigger picture?  Let the Lord's word bring illumination to the details of my life.

verse for the day...

Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. Don’t assume that you know it all. Run to God! Run from evil! Your body will glow with health,  your very bones will vibrate with life! Honor God with everything you own; give him the first and the best. Your barns will burst, your wine vats will brim over. But don’t, dear friend, resent God’s discipline; don’t sulk under his loving correction. It’s the child he loves that God corrects; a father’s delight is behind all this.

       - Proverbs 3: 5-12 (The Message)

another round of Yoga

Yoga. I missed you.  At the same time, you are killing me plank pose. Totally!!! But I know I will be missing you again when this Groupon Fort Worth is over. Some things flat out just cost too much. 


[sigh]

Quotes

We must all suffer from one of two pains. The pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The difference is that discipline weighs ounces while regret weighs tons.
- Jim Rohn

maybe swimming soon?

24hrs later....lots of shock...it is starting to look a bit more inviting!!!
Pool time coming up as soon as its ready. 

want to go swimming?

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Want to go swimming?  No?  ...Don't be jealous of my pool!

Just wanted to remind you what my pool looks like when we get a torrent of rains in Texas and you have drainage issues in your yard.  Yup...this is what you get...a mess!  I get comments frequently:  "You have a pool?  Wow!"  You could too if you bid on a HUD Home like me. :)

my heart sings...

song ~ fall apart

Fall Apart
by Josh Wilson


Why in the world did I think I could
Only get to know you when my life was good?
When everything just falls in place
The easiest thing is to give you praise
Now it all seems upside down

'Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel you now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
But somehow still have all I need?
God I want to know you more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find you when I fall apart

Blessed are the ones who understand
They've got nothing to bring but empty hands
Nothing to hide and nothing to prove
Our heartbreak brings us back to you
And it all seems upside down

'Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel you now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
But somehow still have all I need?
God I want to know you more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find you when I fall apart

I don't know how long this will last
I'm praying for the pain to pass
But maybe this is the best thing that has ever happened to me

'Cause my whole world is caving in
But I feel you now more than I did then
How can I come to the end of me
But somehow still have all I need?
God I want to know you more
Maybe this is how it starts
I find you when--
You will find me when--
I fall apart

thought for the day...

Through his Word, everyday are his promises, Praise the Lord.


- Once-a-Day

{favorite things} naps

I love naps!  About 2.30pm - 4pm, they are awesome!!! I don't get them very much, but when I do, I count them as one of my FAVORITE THINGS!

Quotes

Fear only attacks the things that matter.


-Jon Acuff