Sunday, November 11, 2012

song ~ one thing remains

One Thing Remains

Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your Love
Never gives up on me

And it's higher than the mountains that I face
And it's stronger than the power of the grave

And constant in the trial and the change
This one thing…Remains 


And it's higher than the mountains that I face
And it's stronger than the power of the grave

And constant in the trial and the change
This one thing…Remains


[Chorus:]
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me

Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me


On and on and on and on it goes
Yes, it overwhelms and satisfies my soul
And I never, ever, have to be afraid
This one thing remains

This one thing remains

[Chorus:]
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me

Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your Love


In death, In life, I’m confident and
covered by the power of Your great love
My debt is paid, there’s nothing that can
separate my heart from Your great love...

[Chorus:]
Your love never fails, never gives up
Never runs out on me

Your love never fails, never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your love never fails, never gives up
Never runs out on me



On and on and on and on it goes
Yes, it overwhelms and satisfies my soul
And I never, ever, have to be afraid
This one thing remains
This one thing remains

[Chorus:]
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me

Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your love never fails, it never gives up
Never runs out on me
Your Love
It's your love
It's your love
Your Love
It's your love
Your Love

Friday, November 9, 2012

my friend Jennifer...

Do you ever just stop and reflect on your friends?  Maybe like me, one comes to your mind and as you reflect on your friendship you are overwhelmed by how much the person means to you?  Yah, they probably would die if they knew you were blogging about them too, but hey, maybe then in a small way they would know how you feel about them once they read the thoughts you have and realize that you really matter a TON to them in spite of the lack of phone calls, lack of email updates, lack of dinner dates or sharing a newfound recipe, lack of time spent working on a knitting project or card stamping class...


I am not really sure when Jennifer and I became friends.  I know the "first" real thing I can remember doing with her was when she was willing to go and check out a serger sewing machine (that was listed in the classified ads in a green sheet like paper) with me since I had little to no experience working on them and I wasn't sure I would know if it was a good one and how to test it out.  I was raised sewing, but we had never owned one.  At that point in my sewing career, I had not worked very much on a serger.  So this was our first event to do something together.  She picked me up and we headed that way.  I felt like a stranger riding with someone whom I didn't know hardly at all.  We went to this ladies house, way out the east side of town just as it was getting dark.  Jennifer sewed on the machine and tested it out.  She told me a few pointers and bits of information as she did so.  Since I didn't know her really well, it was so hard to know what she truly really thought of it and read between the lines.  Did she really think it was a good deal?  Would she buy it?  How do you ask these questions directly in front of the seller?  I didn't.  I was early in my working career and felt like $175 was a lot of money and I didn't know whether this was a wise investment or not for a used product.  The seller stated she had only sewn like 10 hours on it and of course I had no way to know if that was a true amount of hours for the shape it was in.  I left there telling the lady that I would think about it.  I still wonder to this day what Jennifer thought of me doing that.  Later that night, I decided I wanted it and that I would sacrifice the $175!!!  I called the lady back and told her I would be by the next day to pick it up but she was vague as to if she would hold it for me or not.  I was a bit disappointed, but had to realize that this was what I got for not making up my mind on the spot.  In the end, I got it plus several spools of serger thread all for $175.  And guess what???  I still have this serger today!  It has been an awesome machine.  The only issue I have at times is threading the stupid thing and making it work with all 4 threads. LOL!


Okay, so let me move forward.  That in my memory is the 1st event Jennifer & I shared in our friendship together.  Since then I have learned much from my friend.  She has:

  • introduced me to sushi...something now that I love emmensly!
  • inspired me to learn to knit socks even though I was an avid knitting teacher at a local quilt & knitting shop - I had never attempted this...though I have yet to complete them
  • told me about a great investment representative who I moved my porfolio to when the person who had been my rep passed away
  • introduced me to a fabulous sweet Realtor who ended up being the one working with me when I bought this house
  • reviewed my home loan options and paperwork with me so that I would now be "educated"
  • gave me a referral to a great home inspector
  • helped me patch a bad spot in my ceiling in my "new" house
  • helped me learn to lay laminate wood flooring
  • her & her husband spray painted my ceilings and cabinets with a fresh coat of paint
  • helped me till the front flower bed when I moved into my new place
  • gave me pool advice 
  • referred me to a great alternative hormone doctor
  • taught me how to make Kombucha
  • introduced me to Cottage Cheese with Applebutter on top (Absolutely Yummy)
  • replaced my kitchen facet with a new one that was not leaky and was cute too
  • shared books with me
  • introduced me to one of my favorite authors...Karen Kingsbury
  • introduced me to oysters, though I didn't end up liking them!
  • offered assistance in many other forms (I bet I will remember a bunch more once I complete this post!) and I must say that I think I have only been able to return these great tips advice, assistance on like 2 or 3 occasions.  But I hope she knows that she means a lot to me!!!


HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jennifer!

Do you ever stop to think about your friends? ...do you ever tell them??? ...why do we keep that secret inside?

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

Prayer from Seven Days in Utopia

"For food in a world where many walk in hunger, For faith in a world where many walk in fear, For friends in a world where many walk alone, We give you thanks oh Lord. Amen."
-Prayer from Seven Days in Utopia

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

4 weeks since my Surgery...Very Thankful!!!

Today...I am very grateful to be 4 weeks out from surgery and for my continued healing and improvements! You have no idea how grateful I am!!!  I want to Thank the Lord for His strength through these really tough times and for giving me relief of an ongoing issue that I have had for a very, very, very long time.  I pray that it will continue and not be short term, but know that either way, He will be my strength and comfort and I will praise Him!

Monday, November 5, 2012

Quotes

"You have to let go of perfect to be an artist." 
-Seven Days in Utopia: Golf's Sacred Journey

Sunday, November 4, 2012

36th Birthday Weekend

Yup. I am 36.  Officially.  ;)

My birthday weekend started off Friday with Lorrie calling and asking me if I was at home and could join her for lunch at Panda Express.  What a surprise and a treat!  I was and so I asked if she could give me 5 minutes to get my hair in decent order [I have this bad habit of not doing it when I am working at my home office which is not smart because people always call or come to the door when I don't]!  LOL!!!  We had a nice time catching up and visiting for about an hour.  I don't believe I have ever done something just with Lorrie and it was fun.

I then made plans to be a couch potato at Gilbert & Connie's after my acupuncture session.  It was fun to visit and knit and just relax.

Saturday, I slept in.  I then worked a few hours and went over to Brent & Jennifer's for the evening along with several others [Martin & Cheryl, Jeff & Debbie, Devin, Tolley, Jonathan & Kristen, Gary & Debi, Daniel & Jessica, and Eric...Carrie came later].  They were having various forms of pancakes [Sourdough Pancakes, Aebleskivers, Danish Pancakes, and Yorkshire Pudding along with Chocolate covered Bacon, Sausage and Ham.].  We ate outside on the patio and the weather was absolutely lovely!!!  We then went inside and Jonathan played the piano and we sang...loud and for about 2 or more hours.  Wow...what fun!  I stayed up way too late!!!  It has been quite some time since I sat & stood around singing like that.  I enjoy singing with people who put their heart into it and are not afraid of how they sound or how you sound.  It was absolutely a bunch of fun.

Sunday, I slept in.  I was disappointed that meeting was canceled for an all day men's meeting...I had hoped to see everyone after not being up to being out since surgery!  I decided to go treat myself to brunch [a late breakfast] at Fuzzy's Taco Shop.  I love their Chilaquiles.  So YUMMY!!!  I then went into town and went shopping at a really nice shopping center.  I had a $50 Coupon for White House Black Market along with a $10 Birthday Coupon, $40 Coupon for Banana Republic, and a $15 Birthday Coupon for Ann Taylor.  I know those stores are not the cheapest places to shop, but I haven't been shopping in awhile and I decided to splurge on myself!  I had a blast!  I got two skirts, a little black shrug, two shirts and a dress!  My shopping excursion was 3 hours which wore me out.  I was tired but had dinner plans to go to Jeff & Debbie's.  I stopped by the house to put my leftovers from brunch away and freshen up and then was on my way.  Devin share's my birthday and since he was in town, Debbie thought it would be fun if I came over.  Travis & Sarah were there along with Dylan & Alison.  Winter came later.  I was the first to leave as I was really tired and my day along with the time change was catching up with me fast.  I came home and crawled in bed...thankful for all my friends who called, sent eCards, text messaged me, sent emails, wrote on my Facebook wall, and sang Happy Birthday to me...I am thankful for another birthday to celebrate my year and a very fun day!

Here is to a year of being 36 and my opportunity to serve the Lord!

Ephesians 4:29

Let everything you say be good and helpful, so that your words will be an encouragement to those who hear them.~ Ephesians 4:29, NLT

Monday, October 29, 2012

Friday, October 26, 2012

song ~ need you now

Need You Now
by PLUMB

Well, everybody's got a story to tell
And everybody's got a wound to be healed
I want to believe there's beauty here
Cause oh, I get so tired of holding on
I can't let go, I can't move on
I want to believe there's meaning here

Chorus:
How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this"?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.


Standing on a road I didn't plan
Wondering how I got to where I am
I'm trying to hear that still small voice
I'm trying to hear above the noise


Chorus:
How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this"?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?
Oh I need you
God, I need you now.


Though I walk, though I walk through the shadows
And I, I am so afraid
Please stay, please stay right beside me
With every single step I take
How many times have you heard me cry out?
And how many times have you given me strength?

Chorus:
How many times have you heard me cry out
"God please take this"?
How many times have you given me strength to
Just keep breathing?Oh I need you
God, I need you now.


I need you now
I need you now

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Quotes

Though are feelings come and go, God's love for us does not.
-C.S. Lewis

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

last day of 15 day Medical Leave...

Today marks the end of my 15 day Medical Leave from work to recover from surgery.  I slept in and then was lazy bones in bed and stayed in my pj's until 5pm.  Between knowing it was my last day to do this, along with being utterly worn out from yesterday and trying to manage the constant congestion from my sinus infection and desire for sleep, I made it last.  My day ended with a massage, one of the best things in the world, something I have not had in over a month.  

The break has been good for me and I pray that I am able to pace myself the next 15 days as I launch back into the work zone.  The goal is to work Part Time and to not overdue it. My doctor stressed with me yesterday that complete recovery is 6 weeks and to remember to not do more than I can.  That's a tough pill to swallow when you have lived your life every day being told you can do more, whatever you did was not enough, and if you are tired it doesn't matter you can still do more.  I still have battles yet to win in this...but I am working on them.  I am grateful for the time to recuperate and look forward to getting caught up, one email, phone call, and project at a time.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Cleared Post Operative Appointment

My Post Operative appointment went well. My doctor was very pleased with healing of my incisions and his exam proved all is normal for this two week stage.  I have been released to work Part Time on the 24th.  Doctor asked me to remember that I had major surgery...(think he knows a thing or two about me???)...he said that though I am up and about, doing well at recovery, don't overdue it.  It takes a full 6 weeks to recover.  

Gotcha.  I am trying.  Promise.

I then went and saw my Allergist.  He gave me my flu shot, an antibiotic shot and an oral antibiotic for an ugly sinus infection.  Yup, that's what extreme allergies with no let up do to you, they infect you.  

I then went to the lab to get lab work drawn for a two week check up on hormone levels since surgery.  This will be repeated in four weeks so that we are making sure we are staying on track as my body adjusts to an all new range of hormones.  

For now, extreme night sweats beyond what I thought were bad ones before and cold feet are all part of the adjustments.  Don't you want to be me?  Hey...I can't complain...or should I say, I won't complain.  One of my major symptoms has not been apart of the picture since I had surgery and I didn't touch the corner of His Robe but believe me, it feels like it!!!

Hopefully I won't feel like crud too much longer and I can continue to improve!!!

14 days since surgery!

Today marks 14 days since surgery! 

I get to drive again!!! You might think that crazy, but as one who totally fends for herself, not getting to go anywhere unless a friends cab came and got me...ugh, yah, that was kinda strange.  Sitting in the passenger side of the car, yah, a totally weird feeling, like I was lopsided or something.  Okay, I have been in that position before, but not that frequently and not in many years!

Today I will have my post operative appointment for clearance to return to work on the 24th, if doctor see's fit and agrees with original plan.  I then will be to see my allergist, originally the appointment was to get approval for my next round of new vials for shots and get a flu shot, but it is looking like I am going to need allergy attention in a whole different way today.  The congestion in my head won't let up and its been 6 days as of today.  Enough.

Regardless, I am looking forward to my day!

Quotes

Always make a total effort, even when the odds are against you.
- Arnold Palmer

Sunday, October 21, 2012

just enough

Doing just enough is never enough.  Give your all, to Him and to others.
-I Am Second

Saturday, October 20, 2012

essentials when you are sick

Michelle brought me breakfast from Cracker Barrel.  I love Breakfast!!! Breakfast can be eaten at any time of the day!

She also brought me Nyquil...maybe I can get some relief and sleep tonight?!!!

yup, a raging head cold

12 days since surgery and I am now battling sickness.  I am getting little sleep and can't breath.  My head is bursting with congestion.  My ears ringing with stuffiness.  

Allergies have been raging such a war the last few days that I am now sick with a raging head cold.  

Ugh.  I was enjoying the relaxing time at home until the last few days of misery.  It has been so difficult.  My body aches.  I can't breath.  I am exhausted and can't sleep.  Food doesn't taste.  Sleep won't come.  I long to escape this agony from elm and ragweed.

Allergies, I was fine without you.  You can leave now, so I can breath, I can eat and taste my food, I can sleep.  I have had more than plenty of you!

Friday, October 19, 2012

another day at home

I went for a walk around the track again today.  This time with my neighbor who is on medical leave and hanging out at home recuperating from an injury she sustained over Labor Day Weekend.  Though I can't walk at the pace I am used to, the exercise did me good.  I wasn't sure I should being my allergies are suffocating me but at the same time I know that my body needs the strengthening to my core muscles and the blood flow needs to be generated.  However, nothing I am taking is cutting these blooming allergies, no Allegra, no Singular, no Mucinex, nor my inhalers.  Nothing.  I can barely breath and have a sore throat from having to leave my mouth open to be able to get oxygen.  The drainage down the back of my throat is irritating it too.  If this keeps up, I will have a raging head cold in no time.

The redness of my belly button is much better however I did a treatment of antibacterial ointment last night after a 2nd dose of Tea Tree Oil.  I want to keep any looming infection at bay.

I spent two hours this afternoon working on creating the documents to file a complaint with the Texas Department of Insurance regarding my health insurance policy.  This is not going to be a quick process, no doubt it will probably take about 6 months, but I am hoping that by their intervention to get a decision on my policy turned around.  I have had continuous health insurance coverage since 1990/1991 and have each proof of coverage for those policies that show no lapse in coverage, even for a day.  This means that though my insurance company put a pre-existing condition on my policy when it was issued, they have no right to do so since I never lapsed coverage, per HIPAA regulations, it clearly states a lapse of 63 days or more puts you in position for a pre-existing condition.  In doing further investigation in the legalities of the HIPAA laws, the longest term you can have on a pre-existing condition is 12 months.  So either way you look at it, I should not be withheld treatment.  I probably should have fought this back at the time the policy was implemented, however at that time I was holding on for dear life to my COBRA policy and not knowing how long I would have unemployment, life had other more critical decisions I was working on.  My health insurance agent stated that because I was going from a group health insurance policy to an individual health insurance policy, this is what allowed them to make this policy restriction.  However, from all my research on HIPAA, state laws, along with the federal laws, I don't find this is correct.  Therefore I decided to move forward with an advocate to deal with this.  I mailed the documents on my way home from acupuncture.