Behavior is linked to your perception of self-value. It's knowing who you are that will change your behavior.
- Shawn Craig
Monday, December 22, 2014
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Dear Hives
Dear Hives,
You made your first appearance back in September 2014, which came out of nowhere. You were horrific and created some deep physical, emotional, and yes, mental stress. After my first episode with you that lasted three days, I ended up in the Urgent Care, trying to figure out what caused your extensive eruptions. I was deeply and very much perplexed as to the root of the issue and what would cause you to attack me like you did. After some contemplation, I could only pinpoint it to one of two or maybe three things:
Maybe Fried Oysters?
Maybe an Immune Booster in a Smoothie King drink?
Maybe Pest Control sprayed at a clients office?
I thought with time, if I repeated any one of these things, then I would know the exact cause of what has created you to react as you have with me. I have not attempted any one of these three things again, yet to my surprise, you have continued to reappear and overtake my body. Lasting generally, three to five days. Little did I know that the process to figure this out would become so difficult and that these episodes would be more horrific than I could have ever imagined anything to be.
I am writing today to share with you dear hives, some of my thoughts and feelings. I want you to understand how I feel.
I want you to know that I understand that you are displaying outcomes exactly as you should. You are letting me know loud and clear that something doesn't jive with you and that it needs attention. I am listening. I want to understand you. I want you to know that I am sorry. I want and will do all I can to figure out what is triggering you so that you can have peace as much as I want peace. I want you to know that you are not abnormal. You are doing exactly what you were designed to do.
Yes, you are making me feel as if I am absolutely crazy. And if not completely crazy yet, that I will be in that zone very soon. I have strongly felt that there was something deeply desperately wrong with me, but I realize there isn't. This is normal. It is how you respond to what is triggering you. I will give you space to be you and will accept you. I will not fight you any more. I will be patient with you. I will do my best to gently soothe you when you even while you are yet creating blisters and welts, all over my body, that sting, itch and are hot to the touch. I will do my best to not aggravate you on any level. I want to ask you to be patient with me as I figure out what is causing you to do your normal thing. I am not here to create opposition. I am in full support of your method. Let's just please work together so we can achieve the results we both want.
Desiring to Help You All I can,
Misty
You made your first appearance back in September 2014, which came out of nowhere. You were horrific and created some deep physical, emotional, and yes, mental stress. After my first episode with you that lasted three days, I ended up in the Urgent Care, trying to figure out what caused your extensive eruptions. I was deeply and very much perplexed as to the root of the issue and what would cause you to attack me like you did. After some contemplation, I could only pinpoint it to one of two or maybe three things:
Maybe Fried Oysters?
Maybe an Immune Booster in a Smoothie King drink?
Maybe Pest Control sprayed at a clients office?
I thought with time, if I repeated any one of these things, then I would know the exact cause of what has created you to react as you have with me. I have not attempted any one of these three things again, yet to my surprise, you have continued to reappear and overtake my body. Lasting generally, three to five days. Little did I know that the process to figure this out would become so difficult and that these episodes would be more horrific than I could have ever imagined anything to be.
I am writing today to share with you dear hives, some of my thoughts and feelings. I want you to understand how I feel.
I want you to know that I understand that you are displaying outcomes exactly as you should. You are letting me know loud and clear that something doesn't jive with you and that it needs attention. I am listening. I want to understand you. I want you to know that I am sorry. I want and will do all I can to figure out what is triggering you so that you can have peace as much as I want peace. I want you to know that you are not abnormal. You are doing exactly what you were designed to do.
Yes, you are making me feel as if I am absolutely crazy. And if not completely crazy yet, that I will be in that zone very soon. I have strongly felt that there was something deeply desperately wrong with me, but I realize there isn't. This is normal. It is how you respond to what is triggering you. I will give you space to be you and will accept you. I will not fight you any more. I will be patient with you. I will do my best to gently soothe you when you even while you are yet creating blisters and welts, all over my body, that sting, itch and are hot to the touch. I will do my best to not aggravate you on any level. I want to ask you to be patient with me as I figure out what is causing you to do your normal thing. I am not here to create opposition. I am in full support of your method. Let's just please work together so we can achieve the results we both want.
Desiring to Help You All I can,
Misty
Saturday, December 20, 2014
the break in blogging...
You know I love to blog. I love to write. I enjoy dialogue. Asking Questions. Thinking about things. Sharing my heart. Sharing in your journey.
I took a break in blogging...
...at least publicly. In that I blogged and wrote in my journal, but either posted the posts privately or just saved the posts and didn't publish them at all.
Why you might ask?
For several reasons.
First, I have been working on some deep roots and things from my childhood, upbringing, training, concepts of truth, readdressing my spiritual journey, learning and relearning things, and the intense growth process has been at times very challenging and hard to share with you. I have felt I needed to create some space. I needed some time to process without putting it all out there.
Second, when I launched into the online dating scene, it became difficult to manage all the things I was involved in both in my personal life and business life, and I had to cut some of them out. Blogging got reduced. Time management had to be redistributed.
Third, I have needed to process some of the criticism and negative feedback that I have gotten over how much I choose, consciously, to share with you about my Courageous Journey. I have had to face the people pleasing tendencies that I have had from a different perspective and address them.
Was the move to not blog a good thing? Did it help, do more good or did it create more alarm when you didn't hear from me? Was my decision to not publish because I feared what you thought of me or because I really needed space? Did I left my feelings of being so overwhelmed at times that I couldn't post prevent me from sharing when I should have shared?
Those are good questions and I am not sure that I have the complete answer. Either way, I did what I felt I should at the time.
The removal of layers to this onion is still in process. As it is in each of our lives. The growth in my personal life has been very horrific this year. The challenges at times have been more than I thought I would face or were possible in certain phases of this journey. The hurt that I have experienced in a handful of situations has been devastating. However, I am committed to continuing this process, no matter how difficult it is and no matter the results. I know there will continue to be people who will agree or disagree with my choices, my decisions, my actions, my journey, who judge me, are unable to love me or show support, based on their perceptions of me, my life and their beliefs of what is truth. I choose to give them space to be who they need to be. My goal is not to create any more pain in their life and if being a part of mine, seeing my journey hurts you, I understand you moving away from me.
In the midst of this, my desire to encourage, love, support and inspire you continues. It is the core of who I am and who I want to be.
I pray that the work I have done in my life is evident to you and the truth of everything you learn about me can only help you to love me more, not create hate, distrust or resentment towards me.
With that in mind, I want you to know that I plan to publish some back posts. You may or may not read them. You may or may not want to follow my journey. Either way, I love you just the same. My blog will not be written for approval or based on your approval. It will be The Life Of Misty with God right by my side as I focus on continuing to Be Courageous, Be Generous and Be Loving!
I took a break in blogging...
...at least publicly. In that I blogged and wrote in my journal, but either posted the posts privately or just saved the posts and didn't publish them at all.
Why you might ask?
For several reasons.
First, I have been working on some deep roots and things from my childhood, upbringing, training, concepts of truth, readdressing my spiritual journey, learning and relearning things, and the intense growth process has been at times very challenging and hard to share with you. I have felt I needed to create some space. I needed some time to process without putting it all out there.
Second, when I launched into the online dating scene, it became difficult to manage all the things I was involved in both in my personal life and business life, and I had to cut some of them out. Blogging got reduced. Time management had to be redistributed.
Third, I have needed to process some of the criticism and negative feedback that I have gotten over how much I choose, consciously, to share with you about my Courageous Journey. I have had to face the people pleasing tendencies that I have had from a different perspective and address them.
Was the move to not blog a good thing? Did it help, do more good or did it create more alarm when you didn't hear from me? Was my decision to not publish because I feared what you thought of me or because I really needed space? Did I left my feelings of being so overwhelmed at times that I couldn't post prevent me from sharing when I should have shared?
Those are good questions and I am not sure that I have the complete answer. Either way, I did what I felt I should at the time.
The removal of layers to this onion is still in process. As it is in each of our lives. The growth in my personal life has been very horrific this year. The challenges at times have been more than I thought I would face or were possible in certain phases of this journey. The hurt that I have experienced in a handful of situations has been devastating. However, I am committed to continuing this process, no matter how difficult it is and no matter the results. I know there will continue to be people who will agree or disagree with my choices, my decisions, my actions, my journey, who judge me, are unable to love me or show support, based on their perceptions of me, my life and their beliefs of what is truth. I choose to give them space to be who they need to be. My goal is not to create any more pain in their life and if being a part of mine, seeing my journey hurts you, I understand you moving away from me.
In the midst of this, my desire to encourage, love, support and inspire you continues. It is the core of who I am and who I want to be.
I pray that the work I have done in my life is evident to you and the truth of everything you learn about me can only help you to love me more, not create hate, distrust or resentment towards me.
With that in mind, I want you to know that I plan to publish some back posts. You may or may not read them. You may or may not want to follow my journey. Either way, I love you just the same. My blog will not be written for approval or based on your approval. It will be The Life Of Misty with God right by my side as I focus on continuing to Be Courageous, Be Generous and Be Loving!
give life your best
Approach life and everything in it with a determination to intentionally give it your best! When you know in your heart that you have truly done your best, you do not feel guilt over the results. You do not beat yourself up. You do not question the results. Because the truth is you couldn't have done more or better when you do your best.
Stay focused. Stay engaged. Stay determined. Give life your best!
#BeCourageous #BeGenerous #BeLoving #EnjoyEveryMoment#BeYourBest
#BeCourageous #BeGenerous #BeLoving #EnjoyEveryMoment#BeYourBest
Monday, December 15, 2014
Quotes
Many of us were taught to put ourselves last, and as a consequence we attracted feelings of being unworthy and undeserving. As those feelings lodged within us, we continued to attract more life situations that had us feel more unworthy and not enough. You must change that thinking.
—Rhonda Byrne
—Rhonda Byrne
Monday, December 8, 2014
Monday, December 1, 2014
Quotes
Surround yourself with people who make you hungry for life, touch your heart, and nourish your soul.
- unknown
- unknown
Monday, November 24, 2014
Fall 2014
Beautiful Fall Leaves changing on my Bartlet Pear Trees in the front yard...
#2014TexasFall #GorgeousColors #LookForTheBeautyAroundYou
#2014TexasFall #GorgeousColors #LookForTheBeautyAroundYou
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| Fall leaves on the Bartlet Pear Trees |
Quotes
Don't dwell on what went wrong. Instead, focus on what to do next. Spend your energies on moving forward toward finding the answer.
- Denis Waitley
- Denis Waitley
Saturday, November 22, 2014
an evening with friends
Love to entertain!!!
Pork Chops, Mashed Potatoes, Mixed Fresh Vegetables, Bacon Wrapped Jalapeños!
Red Wine.
Peach Cobbler.
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| the beverage of choice tonight... |
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| the dessert... |
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
My aim in Friendship
I aim to be your friend at all times. I desire to always be kind. I completely want to understand you. I honestly want to always love you. But...in my attempt to work through my own struggles, to dissolve all my childhood baggage, to not let my issues come between us, to not let hurts keep me from letting you close, to look at my beliefs and clearly know if they are lies or truth, and ultimately to create a loving space to let you in my world, I sometimes will do it all wrong. I will say things that cause you pain. I will do things that make you question me. I will not understand and it will create conflict.
I only ask that you be patient with me. I ask that you love me when its hard to and you don't want to. I ask that you help me understand what I did wrong. Please don't just cut me out of your life. Please don't just build walls. Please don't treat me coldly. This hurts me. Deeply.
I will always say I am sorry. I will always be open to listening even if I don't see things your way. I will always care about you. Even if it means you are no longer in my world and don't want me in yours. I don't want you to resent me. I don't want you to feel obligated to a friendship/relationship. I release you to be who you need to be.
#MyHeart #PerspectiveOnRelationships #BeLoving
#MyHeart #PerspectiveOnRelationships #BeLoving
Monday, November 17, 2014
Monday, November 10, 2014
new intentions
As I return from 10 days away, unplugged from my business, technology (internet, phone, email, texting, Facebook, apps), leaving behind the daily grind of life, away from my "established" friends.....thoroughly getting to experience 5 days on a cruise ship with no routine unless I wanted one, experiencing more firsts (some that weren't on my bucket list...but every first is experienced with enthusiasm), enjoying sunrises and sunsets, food when I was hungry, entertainment when I wanted a good laugh or adventure, the peaceful calm the ocean creates to my soul, the sun rays that warm my heart and body, sleep when I was tired, Yoga each and every morning out on the deck to start my day off in an amazing way, developing a handful of awesome new friendships that have created a bond that I will never forget!!! Then spending 3 days in Florida taking in more time sitting in the sun on a sandy beach letting the ocean and quiet time feed my soul. The time went by quickly and was much needed on so many levels, though I must admit I do not feel it was long enough. Yet God had some amazing things for me to experience and lessons to learn along the way!!! I have memories and experiences I will never forget. I anxiously await the opportunity to create the time to blog about all of these experiences on my personal blog.
As I return to the routine of every day life today, I am implementing a commitment I made prior to my vacation with one of my coaches, to make changes in my business and have set work hours...not just a set number of hours I will work as was the change I made earlier this year. This will be an initial trial run to see how it goes and it will be tweaked as necessary. The changes are necessary for me to create the life I want. I also am even more deeply committed to live more intentionally in my personal life and business. This commitment means that my life will be going through some dramatic changes. I pray that the changes you see in me will continue to inspire you to live with courage, be generous, be loving, and live with all your heart and remember that God will show you the path to take!
#BeCourageous #BeGenerous #BeLoving #CreateTheLifeYouWant
#BeCourageous #BeGenerous #BeLoving #CreateTheLifeYouWant
Monday, November 3, 2014
Monday, October 27, 2014
Quotes
What makes me powerless is trying to control others. What makes me powerful is learning to manage myself. - Danny Lee Silk
Monday, October 20, 2014
Monday, October 13, 2014
Quotes
She dances to the songs in her head, speaks with the rhythm of her heart, and loves from the depths of her soul.
- Dean Jackson
- Dean Jackson
Monday, October 6, 2014
Monday, September 29, 2014
Monday, September 22, 2014
Quotes
A relationship doesn't need any promises, terms and conditions. It just needs two wonderful people: one who can trust and one who can understand.
- Single Matters
- Single Matters
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