I called Terry this afternoon around 4pm when I was running errands for the office, but it went straight to voicemail. I left him a message telling him hello, that I hoped he was doing well today and that his doctor appointment went really well. I never heard from him. Tonight was meeting and I wasn't sure if Terry would be out or not, so I was thrilled when I saw him there He was hunched over in his chair a good portion of the time, but I think that it would be a lot to come and face everyone after you had tried to kill yourself. I don't mean that in a mean way, just simply if you had tried for the 6th time, didn't succeed and knew everyone knew and no doubt felt some humiliation, how would you be when you came to meeting? I had a few minutes with him to talk and his doctor came up and filled me in on what the plan is for right now...Plan A. He said once they get some progress made with Plan A, they will move to Plan B & Plan C. He also informed me that several were going to get together and talk to Terry and make sure all that are working with him are on the same page. I was grateful to hear this because I only believe we can be successful with a plan and knowledge of how we are going to work at helping him. Terry stuck around afterwards, longer than he normally does, for that I am grateful.
I will probably not do the daily updates as I have been, but please feel free to email me or check back weekly to see what I just might post :) I know this will be a long journey...but as my blog states, it can be a courageous journey, but that all is decided by our choice(s). This experience has been a tough one to go thru, but I renewed with the strength of having had my Lord and Savior by my side through each moment of the rollercoaster along with friends that sent prayers up for me - for Terry - for the many others involved, sent me messages of love & encouragement. The next phase of this journey will be me working on a new approach with Terry from things I learned in family counseling and admonishments of those directly involved with him. Please pray for me that I can be an example and take the place as a sister & friend. The outcome of this is not complete yet...the journey continues.
Misty,
ReplyDeleteIt's difficult at such a time to find the right words that say the things that one can only hope will comfort you today and every day...but may it help a bit to know that Uncle Norn and Aunt Vicky will keep you close in thought and in our prayers.
We LOVE you very much,
Hey Misty,
ReplyDeleteCame across the words to this song this morning, thought it might be encouraging to you. It has been to me at various times!
There's a heaviness inside your heart
A weight you can't describe
A feeling that you just can't hide
There's a weariness within your mind
The thoughts don't come too clear
You feel as though I'm not so near to you
But remember I said I'd never leave
Trust in My Word and believe I am here
Forever, I'll never let you go
This is all you really need to know
I've heard every prayer I've seen every tear
When I seemed so distant, I've always been near
And I know the future, and I know the past
So believe me when I say; believe me when I say
This too, this too shall pass.
I know sometimes it's hard for you to put your trust in Me
To place your faith in what you cannot see
I know sometimes you feel that I'm a million miles away
But listen to your heart and hear me say:
I've heard every prayer - I've seen every tear
When I seemed so distant, I've always been near
And I know the future and I know the past
So believe me when I say; believe me when I say
This too, this too shall pass.
Hope this is an encouragement! You and Terry are in our prayers.
Melissa