Monday, December 20, 2010

my soul is grieved...

I texted Terry today and he ended up calling me.  He was very, very, very down.  I asked questions and he either didn't answer or I had to d...........rrrrrrraaaaaaa...aaaaaaaagggggggggggggggggggggggggggg them out of him.  Seriously, it was an awful conversation.  I don't know why he bothered to call if he didn't want to talk.  I learned he got into drugs again on the 14th of this month and was gone and didn't return back home until the 16th.  Mom & Dad would not let him get his clutch on the car fixed, so he sold it for $250 and took some other funds to total $400 and bought drugs.  While he was gone, Mom & Dad took all his belongings into the house and have locked the house and won't let him in.  They state it is in case he doesn't pay rent this month, mind you, they have all his disability money and won't give him any.  I am not saying that he is being a responsible 29 year old, but I am saying their actions are wrong and fraud.  Since when can you steal someone's things?  Really???  He is depressed, very low.  The lowest I have ever had him be so far with me. 

My soul is grieved.

My heart is torn.

I have cried...and cried some more.

I want him to succeed, but no that the choice is not mine.  It is his life.  He has to live it, I can't and until he surrenders to God, life is going to only get harder.

I am realizing, I have another phase to "Letting Go".

Again...another request for Prayers. Prayers for Terry.  Prayers for me.

Quotes

Laughter is the sun that drives winter from the human face.
-Victor Hugo