Thursday, June 30, 2016

when life sets back your writing

I started my personal blog in 2007.  The original plan was for it to be a recap of trips and big events in my life, kind of like an online scrapbook with writings and pictures.  As time went on and I found my voice in putting words on paper, it has developed into me writing more frequently, me writing more and more thoughts, sharing personal things, creating dialogue to inspire you to reflect on your own life and in doing so, I have become more and more vulnerable in sharing you bits and pieces of my life.  This process has been an evolving process and one that I have thoroughly enjoyed as it has grown me tremendously!  I never would have dreamed I was a writer, but it has been an outlet my heart has needed.  

Last year however, when I faced some horrific attacks both personally and in my business, I quit writing as much as I had been.  I didn't have the heart and so I disappeared from my blog.  I felt my time, energy, and focus needed to be working through the situations I was facing of an extreme level in loosing some very close and important friendships to me as I was facing a legal battle with having to sue a client to be paid for services I rendered because they refused to setup a payment plan.  After getting some legal advice, I felt I needed to minimize the exposure I had in order to protect myself.  I felt that I needed to connect with other things and took my writing into a personal journal instead of here online.

Sometimes life does this to us.  It knocks us on off our feet.  It wrecks havoc on the very things that mean lots to us.  It makes us wonder what our mission is.  It makes us frustrated with the circumstances we are experiencing.  It makes us ask God more fervently for direction. It stretches our faith.  It is a purification process.  When we allow this to do it's perfect work, we can see God's hand in our lives to an even greater degree.  When we don't fight the process and are open to being pruned, being cut off from the things that up until this point have given us life, when we are willing to be broken down so that we can be repaired, we can then be healed and grow again.

A lot has transpired and it will be hard to bring you up to speed on all that, and I honestly at this point am not going to even try.  However, I want you to know that I am going to resume my writing and I pray that as I continue to be a part of your life and share a part of my journey with you that you too will be willing to go deeper with God.  That you too will be willing to be vulnerable.  That you too will accept another purification process.  That you too will strengthen your faith.  That you too will let God heal you through whatever pain of life you are experiencing.

God is with you my friend.  Even in the dark, ugly, and horrific mess.  He is with you!  Have FAITH!!!  He is working all things out for your good.

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Prayer 06.29.2016

Dear Most Gracious Loving Heavenly Father,
Today I am lift up my Facebook Friends to you. The ones struggling to find their way, the ones lost not knowing which direction to look for answers, confused by the outcome of situations, frustrated by the challenges life has brought to them, concerned they can't make it, and feeling overwhelmed in the process.
I ask you to give show them today that you LOVE them. I ask you to bring someone into their path to show them a bit of light to propel them forward. I ask you to show up today in a way that they feel and know it is YOU!
You tell us if we seek you (draw nigh) to you, you will be there for us (you draw nigh to us). You state clearly that we will not be destroyed if they seek you with all our mind, all our heart, all our soul, all our strength. Today, show us how to do that more fervently.
Help each of us not to waste anymore time today pushing off what they can do now. Give us the motivation and strength to do the next best thing. One simple step. One task. One prayer. One hug. One smile. One dollar towards debt. One statement saying I am sorry. One choice that will have a ripple effect. One question to find the truth we are seeking.
May we remember that your presence goes before us and we can choose to walk with you today in everything we say and do. Let us be used for you today to encourage, support and inspire others!

Sunday, June 26, 2016

a fabulous weekend

This has been a fabulous weekend! 

~ Speed Dating Event - this is my 3rd time to do this and no, all 6 of the guys were a "no" which just helps me to become even clearer on what I am looking for in a man to join my life! I love that it is easy to know when there is a fit and when there isn't.

~ Wedding Celebration for a dear friend and reflections during that wedding on his life, what he has accomplished and his impact in mine. He has inspired me to increase my stamina to be able to dance for hours and hours and hours and not be out of breath. Seriously!!! Wow!

~ 2.5 Hour Webinar from someone in my ‪#‎CircleOfInfluence‬ on How To Write Better.

~ Clarity obtained on some things holding me back from being able to ‪#‎CreatTheLifeYouWant‬ and how I will change this. Specifically: I am going to take my vulnerability on my videos up a notch. I set a schedule with my Writing Accountability Partner to meet my blog goals, book goal, and other material I am working on with friends for their online university. Some new goals made for my personal life with regards to my routine, specifically some workouts and my schedule. Postponed starting a Bible Study that I was going to begin this week until August as I have 2 I am already in and I was overstretching myself.

~ A new commitment to write again on my personal blog more frequently (some of you are going to be beyond ecstatic that I am doing this as you have missed me immensely and have wanted me to do this).

~ Some dreaming on some things I want to do with my business and changes I want to implement.

~ Some progress made on my ‪#‎MinimalismGoals‬ in my ‪#‎30DayChallenge‬ to get rid of 465 items! I have made $150.00 so far in this process. I have set a hard core deadline of December 31st, 2016 to complete this project with an outline of what I want to complete each month.

~ Hired a guy to clear my lot to put back on the market to sell.

~ Did yard work in my swimsuit...what can be better then getting a tan and trimming bushes? My mom would die.

~ I will resume ‪#‎DanceLessons‬ in July.
‪#‎2016Goals‬ ‪#‎PursueYourDreams‬ ‪#‎LiveIntentionally‬