prayer from a friend

Lord, I know you know ALL our needs and you care for us much more than we can imagine.  Be with Misty during this time...her faith is strong, but so are the emotions that are surging. Help her and give her the wisdom to deal with them to bring inner healing that only comes from you.  Comfort her as she travels in her heart and mind to places forgotten.  Give her the strength to endure this difficult time and guide her in burying lies as they surface.  Your love is so amazing and I know your car for Misty is beyond my own.  Show her that...make it real to her.  In your precious name, Amen!

Counseling Session #2

I started my story.  It contained three short paragraphs.  I couldn't write more.  I got stuck.  What was there to write?  I couldn't write just about facts because the facts have memories.  These memories are not happy ones.  These memories bring back a flood of feelings as if I am standing right there, all over again.

I cried.

I shook with sobs.

Three paragraphs do this to me?  Really???

I feel sick to the pit of my stomach.  

This is really hard.  Very tough.  I am not sure I can do it.  I have never been a quitter.  Never.  I don't know how I am going to make it through this.  I haven't even begun to tell "the rest of the story".  I don't know why anyone in their right mind would choose counseling.  Seriously don't.

Assessment from today:

• You have experienced a lot of change in a short amount of time.  
• We become so driven to survive we don't feel.  
• God wants to open the window of fear and bondage.

Quotes

Don't wait for other people to be loving, giving, compassionate, grateful, forgiving, generous, or friendly...
                                                  lead the way!
- Steve Maraboli