Monday, January 21, 2013
some of my thoughts
I am beyond grateful for extended family and friends who understand a situation with words I can't express, situations I can't explain, feelings I don't want to talk about, lives that have been separated, memories that can't be erased, deep wounds though time has done some to heal can be easily re-exposed...but are patient, loving, caring, understanding, and even if they don't know all the details of what I am facing or have faced, would do or be something different then I am...they truly want the best for me and for my family...and they will love me and pray for me! WOW!!! You have no idea the feeling this gives to me.
another update on Dad
Dad was moved to ICU last night due to needing to be monitored. It has been reported that his blood pressure had risen to dangerous levels however I am not sure this is accurate. Mom went to see him yesterday.
where I am with this situation with Dad
I love my Dad. I appreciate that he took the time to write me a letter and ask for forgiveness. I am beyond grateful for the chance to show love and respond to his letter. I know that God is working in his heart and that the outcome of all this will be as God's wants, according to His plan.
However, this doesn't mean that these events in my life have now suddenly made us a wonderful family. There is more to it than that. You may or may not understand that it brings up a lot of baggage. It is an emotional roller coaster ride. I request your prayers for the whole family drama that drains me both emotionally and physically very quickly. I want to be loving, but don't care to get wrapped up in any involvement of the first 20 years of my life! I don't care to play the games my Mom still plays. I don't care to create further issues, I want peace.
I know many of you are...and I greatly appreciate the love and prayers on behalf of me, my Dad, the medical team and my blood family! I know God has a plan with the timing of all this as it relates to my Dads letter and my letter and I pray that it is used for His glory!
However, this doesn't mean that these events in my life have now suddenly made us a wonderful family. There is more to it than that. You may or may not understand that it brings up a lot of baggage. It is an emotional roller coaster ride. I request your prayers for the whole family drama that drains me both emotionally and physically very quickly. I want to be loving, but don't care to get wrapped up in any involvement of the first 20 years of my life! I don't care to play the games my Mom still plays. I don't care to create further issues, I want peace.
I know many of you are...and I greatly appreciate the love and prayers on behalf of me, my Dad, the medical team and my blood family! I know God has a plan with the timing of all this as it relates to my Dads letter and my letter and I pray that it is used for His glory!
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