Tuesday, June 20, 2017

poem ~ fear of letting go

Today I step forward 
and face more of my fears,
That are holding me back
from living my best years. 

Life isn't meant to feel 
you can't make a mistake,
No God never asked me 
to be perfect in each step that I take.

The judgements of others
keep me stuck in these walls,
Desiring to be made free
of what everyone is expecting of me.

In acceptance of this level 
of more letting go,
I cut my hair shorter
to help me release control.

To fight all the statements
that everyone makes,
About what is right or is wrong
in each path that I take.

It's time to look deeper
at what it means to be a Friend,
And only keep those
whose vision aligns with this trend.

It seems weird to say it
and yet it is true,
I'm going to unfriend many
who don't wanna be true.

True to the connection
of what a relationship means,
True to the desire 
to love beyond everything. 

True to the need
to continually be fake,
True to the realization 
of an honest mistake. 

True to the foundation 
and God given plan,
To live from the heart
without fear of man.

True to the belief
that I can control, 
The life that I live
in and out of this mold.

True to the feeling
that I've been made for more,
That I am beautiful 
down deep in my soul.

True to the triggers
that live forever within,
From years of abuse
from religions boxes.

True to the desire 
I've got everything to give,
True to the realization 
I've got nothing to loose.

True to the standards 
that I set for me,
True to the notion
I don't have to please thee.

True to the feeling 
deep in my heart,
That the still small voice
will always leave it's mark.

True to what matters 
most to me now,
True to the fact
I've got to let go somehow. 

© Misty W Gilbert
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poem ~ I wanna be real

I wanna be real
in my image of me,
I don't have room for pretends 
in any agreement with Friends.

I wanna be real
every day of my life,
For this is when connection 
becomes greater then life.

I wanna be real 
as I search for the meaning,
Of having a choice 
in suffering and grieving.

I wanna be real
and accept it all,
Because to pick and choose 
is asking for a fight to loose.

I wanna be real
even when it hurts,
And I loose all my Friends
that promised to never desert. 

I wanna be real
when confusion I face,
As I try to figure out
which path I should take.

I wanna be real
in my quest to just live,
One day at a time
is enough to each of us give.

I wanna be real 
when I say I want more,
Then mediocrity in the battle
with fakeness the given norm.

I wanna be real
and authentic with you,
Not hiding anything 
I've ever been through.

I wanna be real
when good enough I don't feel,
Because of the challenges
childhood abuse brings me still.

I wanna be real
when I struggle to cope,
And lack the courage to find 
a reason to have hope.

I wanna be real
instead of people pleasing to be,
Knowing deep down
that none of that should matter to me.

I wanna be real
and not just in my head,
As I long to be courageous
with the ability to forge straight ahead.

I wanna be real
and loving to the core, 
Believing all things happen
to bring good stuff out even more.

I wanna be real
even if you don't, 
For we all relate to those 
who are authentic the most.

I wanna be real
even when you mock me,
For sharing my message
to encourage and inspire thee.

I wanna be real
no matter how you take me down,
Because I believe
in the courage to wear my crown.

© Misty W Gilbert
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