Friday, November 26, 2010
Terry
I will miss you. I tried so hard to help you. Encourage you. Show you Patience and Love. Help you see the truth. Walk you thru new concepts.
I have faced a wide range of emotions the last 24hrs...anger, to feeling crushed, to pity, to sadness. I knew things were not good...you have pulled away the last 6 weeks, only come to Sunday meetings the last 3 weeks, not been taking your medicine, been defiant to others. etc. When do I push thru your walls and when do I give you space? When do I insist you need time with friends & fellowship and when do I let you make your own choices and reap the results? I know I am not responsible, but I feel like maybe I have not made as much effort the last 3 months since I was unemployed. It has been a lot harder, I must admit and I have not been as focused about calling you or having you over, though when I did you either refused or were angry at me. My heart is grieved, my soul achs, I am sad, but God's word is true...the way of the transgressor is hard. I love you Terry and would be glad to reach out and help you yet again, if you want to serve the Lord, but I will not support a lifestyle that doesn't involve the wisdom and instruction of God. You had an incredible opportunity that you have thrown away. A place to live, a life of peace, an abundance of council, a job to make money, support from disability and christian fellowship. Until you learn some lessons and face making some tough decisions, you will continue to have a hard life.
I love you more than you know...this has been really hard for me to see you go! My prayers are with you and for you to come to the end and start a new beginning!
Terry is gone...
to??? Please pray for him.
He came by my house at 3.15pm or so this afternoon and swept out my garage and shed. I had asked him to do this for me a few weeks ago and he hasn't done it. He knew that if he did, I would pay him to do it. I also packed up two small sacks of food for him to take with him: cheese, pepperoni, olives, applesauce, carrots, pudding, angel bisquit, peanut butter crackers, trail mix, banana, cookies, candy, granola bars, water, and dr pepper. I told him that I love him, am sorry he has made these choices, wish I could offer him a place with me but in light of his choices, I can't. He said he understood. I asked him what else I could have done to help this last year, he told me to quit asking him that, "You have done everything, I have shoved you away and still am". I was surprised he was that clear. He had some self pity moments, frustrated that he has nowhere to go & feeling like all he is is a failure. He said mom & dad are very mad at several here who have tried to help him, that they don't understand mental illness. I told Terry that doing drugs has NOTHING to do with mental illness. I believe Terry needs medicine to cope with his panic attacks and depression, but he is not mentally ill. He is a very capable young man who has made choices to quit and give up. He wanted me to tell him what to do from here, whether to go back to CA or to VA to be with Mindy. He said he can't make decisions. I told him that is not true. He has made decisions all along. Yesterday he chose not to join me at Tom & Jo's for Thanksgiving. The day before he chose to use drugs. He has been deciding that his job was not a real job, not worth it and when he didn't want to work, he wouldn't...so he lost it. He chose to attempt suicide. I told him, decisions sometimes are hard for me to make too, but he has choices...I have choices and we have to get council and pray about things, but when we do, we must adhere be self disciplined and do to what we are told. I told him whether he realizes it, likes it or not, he is responsible for himself and has been, he just is trying to find ways to cop out. I told him again today as I told him yesterday, he is at a crossroads. He can choose to serve himself and live the street life or he can choose to serve the Lord. It will be a lot tougher now, because he has made some really bad choices, but he can still do it if he wants to. As he pulled away in his car, he broke down sobbing.
Please pray for him.
He came by my house at 3.15pm or so this afternoon and swept out my garage and shed. I had asked him to do this for me a few weeks ago and he hasn't done it. He knew that if he did, I would pay him to do it. I also packed up two small sacks of food for him to take with him: cheese, pepperoni, olives, applesauce, carrots, pudding, angel bisquit, peanut butter crackers, trail mix, banana, cookies, candy, granola bars, water, and dr pepper. I told him that I love him, am sorry he has made these choices, wish I could offer him a place with me but in light of his choices, I can't. He said he understood. I asked him what else I could have done to help this last year, he told me to quit asking him that, "You have done everything, I have shoved you away and still am". I was surprised he was that clear. He had some self pity moments, frustrated that he has nowhere to go & feeling like all he is is a failure. He said mom & dad are very mad at several here who have tried to help him, that they don't understand mental illness. I told Terry that doing drugs has NOTHING to do with mental illness. I believe Terry needs medicine to cope with his panic attacks and depression, but he is not mentally ill. He is a very capable young man who has made choices to quit and give up. He wanted me to tell him what to do from here, whether to go back to CA or to VA to be with Mindy. He said he can't make decisions. I told him that is not true. He has made decisions all along. Yesterday he chose not to join me at Tom & Jo's for Thanksgiving. The day before he chose to use drugs. He has been deciding that his job was not a real job, not worth it and when he didn't want to work, he wouldn't...so he lost it. He chose to attempt suicide. I told him, decisions sometimes are hard for me to make too, but he has choices...I have choices and we have to get council and pray about things, but when we do, we must adhere be self disciplined and do to what we are told. I told him whether he realizes it, likes it or not, he is responsible for himself and has been, he just is trying to find ways to cop out. I told him again today as I told him yesterday, he is at a crossroads. He can choose to serve himself and live the street life or he can choose to serve the Lord. It will be a lot tougher now, because he has made some really bad choices, but he can still do it if he wants to. As he pulled away in his car, he broke down sobbing.
Please pray for him.
Black Friday Shopping 2010
Believe it or not, I have NEVER done the Black Friday shopping experience. I love to shop...but I really hate crowds of pushy and crazy people.
I had spent the day out at Tom & Jo's and stopped by Jeff's to talk on my drive home and Elizabeth and Jean were pouring over the ads to plan their Black Friday shopping spree. They asked if I was going and I said, no, I think you can get some really great deals without the craziness, but if they saw any pans I did need those. Well, when I got home at 1am, I decided to check out www.black-friday.net/online for any great deals. I had learned about the page from a friend on Facebook and I searched the site for the greatest pan Black Friday deals at Kohls, Target, and JCPenny's. I saw some really great deals in a JCPenny's ad and so I thought I might go out today and check them out, but wasn't sure as I wasn't sure I wanted to experience the Black Friday shopping thing at all. Well, I woke up at 7.30am and decided to jump in the shower and head straigt to JCPenny's before the day got on. I found two different sets and compared the prices, pieces and options. I went with these below by cooks, a 10 pc set classic hard anodized. I am very happy with them...they were normally $199.99 for $89.88. I only wish I had a double broiler - though I have never had one I think I would use one. It actually came with the 13 pc set (the next box size up), but the pans were much bigger and I really didn't need more than the 10 pc set. I bought the 5 quart covered sauteuse seperately at 50% off, normally $79.99 for $39.99. I didn't care for the stock pot or the double burner pan, so I opted not to purchase those, which were the only other two pans available seperately. Anyways, I was very pleased as I used the $100 given to me by my GranmaOmi and $25 gift card from Uncle Shawn & Aunt Connie, so I was out no money! I will let you know what I think of them after I use them...but was pretty impressed when I washed and dried them up!
I had spent the day out at Tom & Jo's and stopped by Jeff's to talk on my drive home and Elizabeth and Jean were pouring over the ads to plan their Black Friday shopping spree. They asked if I was going and I said, no, I think you can get some really great deals without the craziness, but if they saw any pans I did need those. Well, when I got home at 1am, I decided to check out www.black-friday.net/online for any great deals. I had learned about the page from a friend on Facebook and I searched the site for the greatest pan Black Friday deals at Kohls, Target, and JCPenny's. I saw some really great deals in a JCPenny's ad and so I thought I might go out today and check them out, but wasn't sure as I wasn't sure I wanted to experience the Black Friday shopping thing at all. Well, I woke up at 7.30am and decided to jump in the shower and head straigt to JCPenny's before the day got on. I found two different sets and compared the prices, pieces and options. I went with these below by cooks, a 10 pc set classic hard anodized. I am very happy with them...they were normally $199.99 for $89.88. I only wish I had a double broiler - though I have never had one I think I would use one. It actually came with the 13 pc set (the next box size up), but the pans were much bigger and I really didn't need more than the 10 pc set. I bought the 5 quart covered sauteuse seperately at 50% off, normally $79.99 for $39.99. I didn't care for the stock pot or the double burner pan, so I opted not to purchase those, which were the only other two pans available seperately. Anyways, I was very pleased as I used the $100 given to me by my GranmaOmi and $25 gift card from Uncle Shawn & Aunt Connie, so I was out no money! I will let you know what I think of them after I use them...but was pretty impressed when I washed and dried them up!
Thanksgiving @Tom&Jo's
Terry & I were invited by Drex & Bethany to do Thanksgiving with them. At the time of the invite, they were not sure what they would be doing but they said they would let us know and it ended being with Tom & Jo.
I volunteered to make the mashed potatoes. Jo informed me that her family LOVES mashed potatoes and to make sure that I made plenty. She told me this twice and stressed how much they eat LOTS of mashed potatoes. So, I did research on the internet. They said to allow a potatoe a person or 5lbs of potatoes for 10 people and they were roughly planning on 40 people, so I did 20lbs of mashed potatoes. I was originally just going to make them as my mom did, but decided to change and make the recipe from Pioneer Woman's Delicious, Creamy Mashed Potatoes. It was hard work, my house was steamy and I was pressed to get this all done and be ready to leave by 11am for a noon arrival...and I didn't make it, I left at 11.30am. I had called Terry 4 times to see if he was coming and wanted to ride with me, but he ignored the calls and text messages. I headed to Pecan Plantation to have dinner with everyone at Tom & Jo's. Lots and lots of people were there: Tom & JoLinda, Steve & Kay, Dave & Charlotte, Drex & Bethany, Jon & Melanie, Grandaddy & Phyllis, Alan & Jenny, Jon & Tracy, Derrek & Jill, Stanley & Kendra, Michelle, me, Anthony, James & Garret...and all the kids associated with these families! We had sooooo much food...as you can tell from the pictures below. We had so MANY mashed potatoes...we only used half of them! In the evening, Phil & Amanda, Brian & Shelley, and Gilbert & Connie came.
It was a fun day...in spite of the sadness with the phone call from Terry at 3pm with the news of his decisions to use drugs the night before. He missed out on a great opportunity and a way to enter in and enjoy christian fellowship, love & support. I stopped by Jeff's house on the way home to discuss the situation with Terry. I got home very late but before I did, I researched the Black Friday deals on pots & pans.
I volunteered to make the mashed potatoes. Jo informed me that her family LOVES mashed potatoes and to make sure that I made plenty. She told me this twice and stressed how much they eat LOTS of mashed potatoes. So, I did research on the internet. They said to allow a potatoe a person or 5lbs of potatoes for 10 people and they were roughly planning on 40 people, so I did 20lbs of mashed potatoes. I was originally just going to make them as my mom did, but decided to change and make the recipe from Pioneer Woman's Delicious, Creamy Mashed Potatoes. It was hard work, my house was steamy and I was pressed to get this all done and be ready to leave by 11am for a noon arrival...and I didn't make it, I left at 11.30am. I had called Terry 4 times to see if he was coming and wanted to ride with me, but he ignored the calls and text messages. I headed to Pecan Plantation to have dinner with everyone at Tom & Jo's. Lots and lots of people were there: Tom & JoLinda, Steve & Kay, Dave & Charlotte, Drex & Bethany, Jon & Melanie, Grandaddy & Phyllis, Alan & Jenny, Jon & Tracy, Derrek & Jill, Stanley & Kendra, Michelle, me, Anthony, James & Garret...and all the kids associated with these families! We had sooooo much food...as you can tell from the pictures below. We had so MANY mashed potatoes...we only used half of them! In the evening, Phil & Amanda, Brian & Shelley, and Gilbert & Connie came.
It was a fun day...in spite of the sadness with the phone call from Terry at 3pm with the news of his decisions to use drugs the night before. He missed out on a great opportunity and a way to enter in and enjoy christian fellowship, love & support. I stopped by Jeff's house on the way home to discuss the situation with Terry. I got home very late but before I did, I researched the Black Friday deals on pots & pans.
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