Sunday, September 30, 2012

song ~ eternal one

Eternal One
by Robbie Seay Band

Praise the eternal One
Father, Spirit, Son
Our hands raised
We will praise
The eternal One
Sing praise to You our King
From our souls we sing
Our hands raised
We will praise
The eternal One, the One
Let the whole world sing
Hallelujah

Let the whole world sing
Hallelujah

You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King

You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King


Praise the God of hope
Spirit draw us close
Our hands raised
Forever praise
The God of hope

Oh praise the eternal One
Father, Spirit, Son
our hands raised
we will praise the eternal One, the One
Let the whole world sing
Hallelujah
Let the whole world sing
Hallelujah

You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King

You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King



Raise your voice now
Louder still
Let the people sing
Raise your voice
Louder still
Let the nations scream
Raise your voice louder still
Let it go, let it build

Raise your voice louder still
I sing, sing

You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King

You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King




You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King

You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King



You, You have saved us
You, You have changed us
You have set us free
Liberating King

You


Sunday, September 23, 2012

song ~ Be Still

Be Still
Jeremy Ledgewood Project

And all that I have
And all that I am,
I created for you.
Just know that I can
endure all of your burdens
take the weight of the world
and put your heart to ease
one day you'll hurt no more.
So be still.

You've made your mistakes
I know that your heart it breaks
I was there with you then.
Washed away all of your sin
and know I'm the Lamb
so just take my hand
the living sacrifice
for you I died
So be still.
And know I am God
the love that you feel
it comes from my heart
I will never leave you
I'll be by your side
And I will always stay true
catch the tears when you cry
when you cry
So be still.

I am the only one you need
I am the only one you seek
I am the grace that cleans
I am the mercy you need.
So be still.
And know I am God.
The love that you feel
it comes from my heart
and I will never leave you
I'll be by your side.
And I will always stay true.
catch the tears you cry
you cry.
So be Still.
So be still.

And I will never leave you
And I'll always be by your side
I will always stay true
The look in your eyes
Tears that you cry
And I will never leave you
and I will always be your side
I will always stay true
The look in your eyes
the tears that you cry.
That you cry.
So be still.
So be still.

And know that I am God
The love that you feel
it comes from my heart.


Monday, September 17, 2012

it's in God's hands

you know how people say, "It's in God's hand now"...well let me tell you, 
it always was

Sunday, September 9, 2012

appreciate the prayers

I can feel the prayers of those who are praying for me.  I appreciate them.  It is comforting to know you are seeking God on my behalf.  Please continue.

Friday, September 7, 2012

credits from your story

Soon the credits will roll in your life. How will the people in the theater feel after engaging in your story? 

Love while you have the time. 

Donald Miller and The Art of Nonconformity (AONC)

Monday, September 3, 2012

[my spoken testimony Sept Camp 2012]

I gave a testimony yesterday at the September Camp.  I have never given one like this before, but I have had several things on my heart and felt that it was time to share.  I will share it with you, my Courageous Journey blog followers.

I have had a very tough time the last year (truly a year and seven months to be exact) and though I try to be superwoman, don't want to admit that I can't do it, and do my best to outwardly show that I am fine, I inwardly have been having a challenge beyond words.  I openly shared this.  I went on to state that most people don't know what went on in the first 20 years of my life, Jeff did not learn of much of my life until I had been here for 7 years.  When I moved here to Burleson, Texas September 1997, I was told by my parents that I was never welcome back in their home and that I would die within 2 years.  Though people mean well when they ask how I am doing, they have no clue how I desperately do not want to answer that question.  My mom was a hypochondriac and everything was about her and her sickness.  I made it clear and informed everyone that I DO NOT WANT to be like my mom.  In any form or fashion.  Not at all!  But at the same time I am having health challenges that are affecting my everyday life and I am exhausted, my mustard seed is crushed, I am discouraged and don't know how much more of this I can take.  I am aware that many don't understand.  I have tried to explain, but the depth of what I am facing is not understood.  I don't fit the box that everyone is supposed to fit into.  I am told I am too intense, too bold, too aggressive.  However, in my heart, I want to serve the Lord and be the woman He wants me to be in spite of the opinions others have about me.  It hurts beyond words when people who you have associated with all your life only come and ask you how you are doing when they see you on Sunday's.  People have whispered about me, said things behind my back: "We don't know how she is doing, we don't see her very much." Yet, nobody has taken the time to come sit on my couch and learn what is going on in my world.  I understand that many times people who are struggling, pull away and their lack of attendance can mean that they are no longer interested in this group of Christian's.  That is not where I am. I love these people, I just can't physically do it.

I know I need more faith.  I know that when my hope is placed where it should be, I have an anchor for my soul that is firm and secure [Hebrews 6:19].  When it isn't, my hope is out of balance.  When my hope is in the right place, I have the peace and joy He wants me to have [Romans 15:13] because I am trusting Him.  I know the Lord has done much for me in my life and He will do it again.  I need more faith.

I requested prayers.  I need the prayers.  I don't have the wisdom for many of the decisions I am having to make. I don't understand God's plan for my life right now.  I don't have the strength to face the challenges that keep throwing me up against a brick wall.  I am exhausted!!!

I thanked two people very involved in my life for their love and support and continued input in my life.  I need them!

I also went on to say that I didn't know want people to come up and praise me for where I have been in my life.  The only reason I am where I am today is because of the Lord Jesus Christ working in my life.  Because He has forgiven my sins and given me a new life, another chance, an opportunity to sort through my baggage and serve Him.  If you can't come to me at other times, don't come to me now that I am pleading for your prayers.  Please don't.

I have learned what it is like to have a relationship with Him and not have to cross every i and dot every t [yes, that is backwards - I wrote it that way on purpose].  Through my situation, I am learning that everything is not as you might see it with your eye.  There is much more going on behind the scenes then you know.  I want to let my own situation motivate and grow me as the Lord wants.  I want to have more compassion and love for others in their difficult times.  I want to encourage others when I may not understand what is going on in their world.  I want to be an encourager.

I have many blessings...I am working on another post in which I will list many of the things I consider my top blessings.  But in the meantime, will you pray for me?  Pray that I have Wisdom?  Courage?  Patience?  Faith? and that the challenges and trials I am facing will only make me a better shinning light for Him!

I am with you. [Always]