Sunday, March 24, 2013
response to Mindy's texts
I want you to know I do care. I would love to share about my life and explain things if you want to learn and know. I have been open about my life...very open and have been condemned, rebuked, isolated, shunned, mocked, etc. You have made some assumptions that are not correct or true but I can't blame you...you don't know what has happened. I don't know what you have "heard" as you state so I can't confirm anything. I don't expect that the 8 years we have been apart will be resolved in one breakfast meeting. I never thought that. I simply was grateful to be able to spend time with you because the last thing I knew was you never wanted to hear from me again. I didn't expect you to talk to me at the memorial. Didn't think you wanted to spend time with me. Therefore since I didn't have your address or email or phone number there wasn't a way to contact you. There wasn't a reason to since I thought you were done with me. You said if I ever left the group you still didn't want to hear from me. Maybe you didn't mean that...but I took it literal. That's my fault and I am sorry. I didn't continue a relationship with you for several reasons and I hope you will accept my apologies. If you don't...I understand. I will respect your wishes and give you space. I am not trying to invade your life or change you. I love you. I care about you. Even if we do not talk and I don't know what is going on in your life...I still do!!! I haven't felt you wanted a relationship with me so I let go. I know that's hard to understand. I felt it was best. I don't want to hurt you. I want you to live the life you want and haven't judged you because you have. I have given you the space I wanted. I hope that my letter to you will explain a few things. If you choose not to read it, I will understand.