Monday, June 10, 2013

Counseling Session #2

I started my story.  It contained three short paragraphs.  I couldn't write more.  I got stuck.  What was there to write?  I couldn't write just about facts because the facts have memories.  These memories are not happy ones.  These memories bring back a flood of feelings as if I am standing right there, all over again.

I cried.

I shook with sobs.

Three paragraphs do this to me?  Really???

I feel sick to the pit of my stomach.  

This is really hard.  Very tough.  I am not sure I can do it.  I have never been a quitter.  Never.  I don't know how I am going to make it through this.  I haven't even begun to tell "the rest of the story".  I don't know why anyone in their right mind would choose counseling.  Seriously don't.

Assessment from today:

  • You have experienced a lot of change in a short amount of time.  
  • We become so driven to survive we don't feel.  
  • God wants to open the window of fear and bondage.


  1. And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ. It is right for me to feel this way about you all, because I hold you in my heart, for you are all partakers with me of grace, both in my imprisonment and in the defense and confirmation of the gospel. (Philippians 1:6, 7 ESV)

  2. I was just about to write the verse Jennifer wrote! He WILL bring the good work in you to completion! You can do this Misty! I have been thinking of you and praying.