Friday, September 27, 2013

LifePlan Nuggets

It's been a month since LifePlan Coaching with Chris LoCurto.  As I have absorbed the intense two days and reviewed my notes, I have made a list of nuggets, as I do with all forms of extensive training.  I know I need a mentor and I pray that God has someone who will be just the right person for me on this part of my journey.  

List of Nuggets from LifePlan Coaching:
  • Unbeknown to me, I really wasn't accepting my childhood and past.
  • The feeling I could have done something to change the results of my childhood and past has been permeating my life.
  • I have been living with fear I didn't think I had.
  • I have had deep fear that the life I had before is somehow going to be repeated.
  • The degree at which I feel I am not good enough is tremendous.
  • The stress I learned to live with in my childhood is an expectation that I feel I must do and keep up now because it was the norm.
  • How the gas pedal and brake concepts affect my life significantly, and the focus needs to be kept at monitoring them.
  • The level of abuse in  my life was more significant, a major impact, and very prevalent, much more than I have given it credit.
  • I have spent 35 years in a toxic belief system and being controlled.
  • Never having been encouraged, told what I did was good, and spending years being punished, I continue to live out those same feelings in everything.  I have lived with feelings of being displeasing and being a disappointment my entire life.  I now think everyone feels the same way about me.
  • I have carried over these same concepts to my relationship with God.

The areas I feel that have come to light that need to be spent more time reflecting on are:
  • How do I change and feel and see God in my past? Yes, I know in my mind he was there.  How do I go back and feel he was apart of those details (in my heart) like I do in my journey today when I didn't feel or see him then?
  • What am I actively doing to live My Life Purpose?
  • How do aggressively change the "Not Good Enough" mentality to rid it out of my mode of operating?

God has used Chris greatly in my life.  I feel I have barely got a grasp on my nuggets let alone its impact in my life.  I pray that I can let the concepts work deep down into my feet and become the gal God wants me to be.  He is amazing at how he works and I truly stand in awe.

Thank You big brother Chris!

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