I thought I was handling all this stress well and trying not to get put back into a zone I left from for a reason...but after 10 days of pain in my jaw (due to evidently clinching my teeth), I have realized I am letting it affect me more than I should. I saw the dentist on Tuesday and he adjusted my bite to help with the pain and confirmed the muscle in my jaw is swollen. Over the years, my dentist has told me that I clinch my teeth and may be grinding too. He has seen improvements over the last few years and I had hoped I was not doing it as much as I used to. I have been learning to focus on what I do and how I respond. However, it may be time that I have to get a mouth guard and spend the money even though I didn't want to. Thankfully, it is not an issue TMJ and the joint.
I have never been one to be able to hide my feelings very well, my face shows everything even if my mouth is shut. I think this can be both a good and bad thing. I love my clients and hope they can be patient with me through this time. The fine line of caring and wanting the best for everyone who is not on that same page, and yet deal with the unexplainable motives, thoughts and actions by people who should care the most is tough.
May God give me the strength, grace and wisdom for this situation. He knows I need Him! Thanks again for the prayers.