You made your first appearance back in September 2014, which came out of nowhere. You were horrific and created some deep physical, emotional, and yes, mental stress. After my first episode with you that lasted three days, I ended up in the Urgent Care, trying to figure out what caused your extensive eruptions. I was deeply and very much perplexed as to the root of the issue and what would cause you to attack me like you did. After some contemplation, I could only pinpoint it to one of two or maybe three things:
Maybe Fried Oysters?
Maybe an Immune Booster in a Smoothie King drink?
Maybe Pest Control sprayed at a clients office?
I thought with time, if I repeated any one of these things, then I would know the exact cause of what has created you to react as you have with me. I have not attempted any one of these three things again, yet to my surprise, you have continued to reappear and overtake my body. Lasting generally, three to five days. Little did I know that the process to figure this out would become so difficult and that these episodes would be more horrific than I could have ever imagined anything to be.
I am writing today to share with you dear hives, some of my thoughts and feelings. I want you to understand how I feel.
I want you to know that I understand that you are displaying outcomes exactly as you should. You are letting me know loud and clear that something doesn't jive with you and that it needs attention. I am listening. I want to understand you. I want you to know that I am sorry. I want and will do all I can to figure out what is triggering you so that you can have peace as much as I want peace. I want you to know that you are not abnormal. You are doing exactly what you were designed to do.
Yes, you are making me feel as if I am absolutely crazy. And if not completely crazy yet, that I will be in that zone very soon. I have strongly felt that there was something deeply desperately wrong with me, but I realize there isn't. This is normal. It is how you respond to what is triggering you. I will give you space to be you and will accept you. I will not fight you any more. I will be patient with you. I will do my best to gently soothe you when you even while you are yet creating blisters and welts, all over my body, that sting, itch and are hot to the touch. I will do my best to not aggravate you on any level. I want to ask you to be patient with me as I figure out what is causing you to do your normal thing. I am not here to create opposition. I am in full support of your method. Let's just please work together so we can achieve the results we both want.
Desiring to Help You All I can,